In The Dark

Need To Go

               Aiden's POV
     Turning onto my aide and reaches over for Derek, his side of the bed is cold. The sound of loud music plays from the living area. I sit up and remember I'm naked. The memory of us...messing around last night outs a smile on my face.
     My eyes widen when I see Derek doing pull ups on a large piece of wood. The muscles in his arms and abs flex and he pulls himself up. He drops down on to the floor and begins doing push ups. He abruptly stops, looking around until his his eyes hand on me. Sweat glistens on his body as he stands, grabbing the rag in the couch chair.
   "Morning," he says. I force a smile, blushing from being caught staring at him. He makes his way over and kisses me, not caring that I'm yet to brush my teeth. "You okay?" He asks.
    "Perfect," I say, leaning against the wall with my arms crossed. "Is-is it normal for my legs to be sore?" He chuckles, looking down at the floor.
     "It is. I feel like I should apologize for stopping what was going to happen," he says. I.open my mouth to say something, but he stops me. "I could feel your anxiety, but also your disappointment. If we have sex, there's no going back for us, we're completely mates then. I want to make sure that your ready for that before your thrown into it like everything else lately."
     I walk over and place my arms around his neck, jumping up so my legs wrap around his strong torso. I kiss him passionately, my hands going into his her black hair. Our teeth scrape against each others as our tongues battle for dominance. His hands squeeze my ass, making me laugh.
    He presses me against the wall, his tilting my head back with his hand while the other is gently wrapped around my throat. "Ahh," I say as he kisses me so hard its nearly painful. This is how I expected Derek to be when I first let him; dominant, sexual, dangerous.
     A loud knock.cokes from.do door, making me remove my legs and hit my head against the wall. Derek steps back when the door opens, revealing Scott and my brother. Scott gives Derek and I odd looks.
    "Your head okay?" Stiles asks me. I nod, not wanting to talk. I've always been a good liar to everyone but him. He can always see right through me. "Anyways, we think we've figured out a way to lure the Alpha in."
    Derek groans, placing his large hands on the table. I can't help but think about what they were doing to be last night. "We agreed we were going to wait for him to come to us. Its safer that way, and he's too smart to fall for any of your traps. When you guys have a plan, he'll be ten steps ahead of you."
      His voice is deep and scary right now; sexy. His clenched fisted, and glared expression should terrify me, but it makes me have to clench my thighs together.
    "I tried explaining this to him," Scott says. "Aiden, can you come here for a second?" I leave Derek's side and go to Scott. He doesn't say or do anything.
    "Was there a reason for-"
    "Yes. Just stay next to me." I don't bother arguing, knowing he's more stubborn than me. "Stiles, Derek is right; we might not like him, but he's right. The alpha is dangerous and blood thirsty. Going after it would be suicide." Stiles hands me my phone from over the table. I have two missed called from my parents and one from Theo.
     Wanna go for a run later? -Theo. I text back saying yeah and hand him my phone back.
   "I don't feel like holding it."
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           "Slow down," Theo yells after me. I stop, leaning against a tree. He catches up and stares at me in shock. "Ever thought of joining track? Damn." I smile, taking deep breaths.
    "Sorry. I'm used to running a lot now," I say. He nods, wiping sweat off his forehead. He looks up at the sun, closing his brown eyes.
    "Take a picture. It'll last longer," he says, noticing my staring. A blush creeps onto my cheeks as he smirks cockily. "Stand here," he tells me, holding out his hand to me. Instead of taking it, I do it on my own. I look over the cliff we're on, enjoying in view.
    "I wanna leave," I say, finally able to say it. He glances over at me. "Ever since I've been back, my anxiety has been.through the roof. I can feel my depression starting to resurface. Its not easy to hide anymore. My moms starting to notice."
    I blink back tears. "Remember when we were in middle school and you were sad the whole day and wouldn't tell me why?" I nod. "I had to call you out in.class to make you tell me. This time it wasn't much of a struggle and maybe that's because its worse." I break down on tears almost falling to the ground.
    "I can't take this anymore," I say, staring into his eyes.
    "Go back with your mom. If you explained yourself to your dad, he would understand. When your ready, come back. This is all up to you. You can't force yourself to do things that are ruining you."
    I rest my head on his shoulder, closing my eyes. "We should head back."
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         When I walk inside the house its already late and the lights are all off. I take my jacket off and hang ur in the coat rack. The lights turn on out if nowhere, making me jump. Scott, Stiles, and Derek all sit on the couch looking at me like I've disappointed them.
    "What's going on?" I ask, drawing out my words as I sit on my dads recliner, pulling my legs to my stomach.
    "Where have you been all bight young lady? I-we- have been trying to get ahold of you all afternoon," Stiles says, sounding an awful lot like dad.
    "One, we're the same age. Two, I had it on silent. I have to have a somewhat normal life still; at least I should be allowed to try. Now, stop complaining and just tell me what's wrong."  Scott and Stiles both look directly at Derek who glares at them.
    I notice the blood on his shirt and temple. "Mr.Sourwolf is now the alpha." His jaw clenches as well as his fists, but his eyes soften when they look at me.
    "H-how did this happen?" I ask him.
    "I killed the alpha," he answers. So now your a murderer? His eyes glow red for a second, making my own widen. The door opens and our parents walk in. They stop when they see all of us. My dads hand goes to his waist band when he sees Derek, who stands. "I just drives them home. With all the killings going around, I didn't think they should be on their own."
     "How did you know where they were?" He asks. Seriously dad? Just let him go.
    "I was driving home and seen them walking. You should just be happy they made it home alive." I'm surprised by his harsh tone. Kind of a turn on. I stand up and make my way to my room, my hand grazing Derek's on purpose. Walking into my parents room, my dad follows behind me.
    "I need to talk to you both," I say, sitting in the edge of the bed. "Dad, I love you and I love being back here with you. But being back here has brought back some things, bad things. You've noticed it. I think I should go back with mom when she leaves and wait until I feel I'm okay again to come back."
    His shoulders slump as he looks down at his hands. I've always trued to make everyone else happy and I'm starting to think that's part of my problem. "I understand. I think that's a good idea." Sighing, I stand up and hug him tightly. Suddenly I'm brought back to the many times he used to carry me around this house and tuck me into he'd while singing me a song.
    "I love you dad." He rubs the top of my head before letting me go. The door to my room flings open and Derek pulls me in. "You okay?" I ask.
    "Perfect," he says sarcastically. He sits down on the chair next to my window, pulling me with him so I'm on his lap. "Why didn't you tell me you wanted to leave?" He asks. Guilt rushes over me. You're taking care if yourself now, not others. Pur yourself first, Aiden. I close my eyes and take a deep breath.
    "I didn't know how to. You seemed happy about finding your mate and I didn't want to ruin that. When I'm with you, that's the only time I feel calm and safe, at others I'm waiting to die," I tell him. I can tell he's listening to my heartbeat to see if I'm lying about any of this.
     "You were going to let me claim you. Why would you do that if you were just going to le-"
    "I've just made this decision a few hours ago. Last night was the first time in almost two months that I've felt amazing and like nothing was wrong. Then I wake up and reality hits me in the face. I just need you to understand."
    His green eyes search mine. I could get lost in his and not care. "Its for the best. I don't think its good for you to be around me anyways." My heart stops for a second. "As a new alpha, I'm stronger than before and will have to learn how to control it as well as turning. I don't want to risk you getting hurt by me."
     I rest my forehead against his, closing my eyes. "Can we still have this last week together? Then you can work in control, cause right now that's the last thing I want you to do."

AN: another unexpectedly long chapter. COMMENT and share!!!! Stay alive |-/                     -Veah