In The Dark

Don't Make This Harder

                  Derek's POV
       The past week has been hard for me. Even though Aiden and I agreed to spend this last week together, we haven't been able to. She's been busy packing, which I offered to help with but she refused,  and I've bee worming on controlling my shifting. Out of nowhere, or over the smallest things, I get extremely mad or irritated. Although I want to be with Aiden, I don't want to loose it with her.
      I place my foot in the tree trunk and grip a branch, pulling myself up so I can climb on her room window. She leaves in the afternoon, and its currently three in the morning. I have to at least have a little bit of time spent with her before she leaves.
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                Aiden's POV
     "please," I cry softly into Derek's chest. His tears hand in my shoulder. He's trying to take the pain away, but it's not enough. I know I'm going to die, but at least it'll be in his arms. We've had to.keep this relationship secret due to our age gap of six years.
     He sits up, holding me to his chest. "I love you Paige," he says, his voice cracking. It's usually so strong, but not now. I wish I had told him my first name in the beginning, but I didn't trust him and then it stuck when it was too late.
    He squeeze me tight, doing exactly what I need. Him to kill me. Pain shoots through my sides and chest. I can hear his loud sobs and he rocks me back and forth kissing the top of my head. The pain is too much still, making me pass out.
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      I wake to someone shaking my shoulder. Tears are running down my face. Derek turns on the lights and lays back down next to me. We haven't been able to see each other like we wanted to this last week.
    Staring into his eyes, I realize something I somehow didn't before. Its him. A sob racks my body. "Derek?" I ask as if its a question who he is. What if he doesn't remember? What if I have this all wrong and he thinks I'm crazy.
   "Yes," he says.
    "What's my middle name?" I ask him. My heart is beating so fast I can hear it perfectly, then again I can hear everything perfectly these days. His head now hangs like he's ashamed.
    "Paige," he mumbles. I cup his face, making me look at him. "I love you," he cries.
    "Derek," I sigh, leaning in and kissing him. Why didn't he tell me the night of our date when I told him about what happened. "Why-why didn't you tell me?" I stutter.
    "When I found out it was you, it didn't make sense. I thought you were dead, I held your dead body in my hands until the ambulance showed up. After that I fled town because of my parents and sister's deaths. When I came back, you had left with your mom. Now when I met you, I knew there was something about you and it wasn't just the fact that you're my mate. It didn't take.me wrong to realize it and it was obvious you didn't remember until right now."
   I watch his lips move as he speaks. "Your really back," I say. He nods. I lean over and kiss him deeply. It's even better now that I know. "I love you," I find myself saying against his soft lips. He pulls back in surprise and grins a little.
    "I love you too, Aid." Why does this all have to happen now? The day I'm leaving to go back with my mom. He pulls me close to him again, just holding me to his chest. "I'm happy your doing this for yourself, but you have to remember how to control yourself during the full moons." I nod, looking up at him.
   "I know," I say, wishing he wouldn't of brought that up. I can hear the sound of someone walking in the hallway. Stiles and Scotts voices are loud enough to hear. "I don't want to leave him."
    "Stiles?" He asks me. I nod. "You'll be back." Cupping the side of his jaw, I lean in. Our lips slowly make contact. his hands gently run through my hair as our foreheads press against each others. The same feeling I had the other night awakens in me.
     "We can't do that. It wouldn't be good for neither of us," he says. I nod and lay down, my head laying on the edge of my pillow. "I know I keep disappointing in you in that way, but I don't want you getting hurt. If we complete the mating process and I claim you, the distance will be physically painful."
    Biting my bottom lip, I close my eyes. "Lay down with me. I need to sleep," I say, trying not to sound upset. He lays down, facing me.
     "Goodnight."
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       "Derek," I say, walking into his loft. He left this morning before I woke up, which didn't help my mood. He turns around from the large window and looks at me. My mom is outside waiting for me to come out; I had to tell her this is where Theo is staying.
     "I thought you left already," he says, sitting down on one of the stairs. I inwardly groan.
    "I wanted to see you first. You said this was a goo-"
    "It is, Aiden. That doesn't mean I like it. I can feel that you don't either, it's like your forcing yourself to do this and when you get there you'll be worse than you are now." At least he's being honest.
      "Why didn't you tell me this last night?" He shrugs, his eyes sad. I sit down next to him, taking his large, calloused hands in mine. "If you think this is a bad idea, I'll stay and start taking meds again to help me." He shakes his head.
    "You need to do what you think is best for you, love."
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       When I get back in the car I have tears running down my face, trying to wipe them away before my mom can notice. She looks over at me. "That wasn't Theo was it?" I'm too numb to react right now.
    "Why would you think that?" I chock out.
    "Cause whoever it was, was standing in front of the window and it definitely didn't look like Theo." A tear escapes my eye.
    "Can we just go?" She nods and drives away.

    AN: Sorry for this being kind of delayed. Comment and share!!!! Stay alive |-/                     -Veah