Locker neighbors Past

Zachs POV *Chapter Seven*

Zach's POV

So I did go to Charles' house and we almost got into a fist fight, because he kept smirking and talking about Ariel and how she was so innocent and now she's the worlds biggest slut. Which isn't true. She is not a slut I know what sluts are. So, I kept defending her and he just kept saying stupid shit and I punched him once and walked out, because I know what I would do if he got me to my boiling point.

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Okay, I'm beyond worried. Ariel hasn't been here for a week now. I miss her presence. She's so outgoing and confident. She is also very beautiful. Ugh, I remember in eight grade I only told her that TWICE. I always called her hot and she hated that. I text her phone, but I don't even know if it's still her number.

It's first hour and I'm in social studies. My table us very lonely and as I look around I see Michael, ugh, I really t hate that kid. Whenever Ariel is around they're always talking. He's on his phone, texting ? I don't know. I suddenly got an urge to see who it was. Maybe it was Ariel. So, I get up and walk past him looking down at his screen very sneakily, he is typing on and he is very good at hiding it.

The messages bar said 'Ariel Rose😍😘😁😊☺️😹😂...' The last message she sent said, 'yeah, I just got out of the hospital. I should be back tomorrow or the next day!'

Hospital?! And why was his name for her all....that?! Honestly, are they dating? Oh god no. They can't! They can't they can't they can't oh nooooo. Zach, quit it your just over thinking to much. They are most likely NOT dating. Yeah, thats it. Zach your just over thinking all of this. She probably just put that as her contact, she did do that in eighth grade on my phone. But I erased it. Ugh, I erased it. I'm stupid. So then maybe he likes her...

stop stop stop stop stop.

Just quit thinking about her and pay attention, by now I was sitting in my seat again, still lonely. I want to text her, to try and make it as close as I can to old times, before...yeah. I was so rude to her and I still hate myself.

Hate myself for hurting her.

Hate myself for treating her like shit.

Hate myself for being a dick.

Hate myself for not texting her first.

Hate myself for not texting her back.

Hate myself for ignoring her.

But.

Most of all,

I hate myself for never telling her that I love her, and for letting her go.

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It was the last hour of the day, ugh math in Mrs. Pashinton. She was old and a little wrinkly, she was rude and always ruined our day. I drift off fantasizing about what it'd be like if Ariel and I were together, if only I hadn't told Charles. If only I didn't ignore her. If only I texted her. If only... I am staring down at my notebook and start writing down words that are in my mind, the notebook now says, "I love you Ariel" filling the whole page. I tap my pencil on the desk staring at the words, I make it a little neater. And then write on the very bottom, "I know you hate me but.... I've always loved you. Signed, Zachary Andrew Zempling." I sighed and looked at it. My pencil still on the paper.

"Zachary!" Mrs. Pashinton called for me, I looked up and she continued with a fake smile, " can you answer my question please?"

"Sorry I was looking over my notes so I'm ready for the test tomorrow, what was the question again?" I say politely.

"What's the value of x. Would you come up and solve?" She answered me, oh how I here her.

I look at I and it's really easy, so I solve it quickly and put a fake smile on my face and say, "is this correct?" And before she answers I roll my eyes and walk to my seat.