Locker neighbors Past

Zachs POV *Chapter Twelve*

Zach's POV

she's dead. gone. and it's my fault.

I'm at her funeral, so many people are here. She was loved by all of us. those guys and her mom are sitting at the front on the chairs weeping. her mom is weeping in Shawn's chest and his chin is resting on her head and his tears are falling down freely, as mine are.

A pastor is preaching at the front of the church. This is a baptist-nondomenational-Christian Church, as she told me before.

I wonder what we'd be doing right now. I wonder if we'd be together, a couple.

this isn't just a wave if missing Ariel, it's more like tsunami tides in my eyes. and I don't try to stop it. there is a raging storm inside me that will never go away, unless Ariel comes back. She's the cure to everything for me. If she was here there wouldn't be huge waves coming out of my eyes. If she was here there wouldn't be a storm inside me. But, she's not here. And I have to accept that. I hear the Pastor start praying, so I bow my head, close my eyes, and wish this was all a dream.

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it's just another night, and I'm staring at the moon. I saw a shooting star and thought of you. I sang a lullaby by the water side and knew, If you were here I'd sing to you. Your on the other side as the sky light splits in two, I'm miles from seeing you. I cN seethe stars from America. I wonder do you see them too.

So open your eyes, and see. The way our horizons meet. And all of the lights will lead into the night, with me.

And I know these scars will bleed. But both of our hearts believe. All of these stars will guide us home.

Ed Sheeran... Ariel loved his songs. She listened to every one of them. And I know these scars will bleed. I think of her whenever this song comes on, which is always. And when I'm not listening to this song I'm still thinking of her. She was my everything. It's been a week since the funeral, and I still cry myself to sleep while listening to All of The Stars by Ed Sheeran. That song is meant for me and her.

I'm currently in the car, listening to that song. And knew, everything led back to you. So can you see the sta-

My phone starts to ring.

(H-Hannah My sister, M-Me)

M-hello?

H-Zach! You need to get home now! You might wanna hurry!

M-what's going on?

H-just get home!

and she hung up, huh weird. I make a U-Turn and head back to my parents house. I moved out last week, just before the funeral. Yes, I'm only fifteen but I'm turning sixteen in a couple of weeks. And I just couldn't stand being in that house. Sometimes Hannah comes over and sleeps over at my house if she's fighting with our parents. Which is a lot.

Soon enough I'm pulling into my parents driveway and see, Matts car? What?

I still have my key so I unlock the door and see-what the hell?!

I start to ball on the door step of my parents house.

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A/N

sorry this was kind of a short chapter!😁

ooh cliffhanger!

who do you think it is?

oh and I think I'm gonna stop with the flashbacks for awhile.

do you think I should or do you wanna know my past?

*cough cough what's happening right now cough cough*

ahem sorry about my cough coughing.

so the rest of these chapters are either going to be in Zach's POV(obvi haha), or one of the boys POV like Matt, Shawn, Cam, or Hayes.

okayyy byee.

love you Boo Bearss✌️💕

~Celeste😘

{Saturday May 17, 2014}