Secrets-EXO Luhan

Chapter 17

It had gotten worse though the last few days. Reporters won't leave the thing about Me and Luhan being a thing alone and the fan of EXO will not stop torturing me with their horrible comments. Luhan tells me not to read them, that he doesn't, but it's so hard.

This morning I woke up, I felt like I was dieing. That night I didn't sleep much only for around a couple of hours, just the same as many nights before. I look down at the good luck charm luhan had gave me that was  hooked onto the bag that was on the floor and smiled. That smile was soon taken away as my phone beeped.

Picking up the phone, i pressed the notification and slide in my password. Once the phone had opened i read down my feed, not only was it Harsh comments about me but death threats.

What does Luhan even see in her? She looks like a cow!

Why doesn't she just disappear? I doubt anybody would miss her not even Luhan.

Just Go Kill Yourself! It's not like you are making His life any better by being here!

Many more would appear as i kept scrolling and scrolling down the feed, what was my life anymore? I had started cutting again and i would delibrately not take my pills but it just seemed like god wanted to put me threw more pain then i had already gone threw in my life. I'd nevere tell anyone about it but somehow Luhan find out about it and be there to stop me from cutting/to make me take the pills.

I didn't feel well today so i stayed home, Luhan was heading out this morning to do an interview about 'his girlfriend'. He would tell me to eat, take my pillc, not to cut because he knew that I would just want to disapear from the world and no-one would care. He'd say that he would miss me, that if I was gone his life wouldn't be the same. Luhan always knew the right things to say.

He was gone now, the door had just closed. 

My phone kept beeping, it would never stop. I held my head in my hands as i chucked down the water that was on the table. I couldn't take it anymore. I picked up the bag that was on the floor ran upstairs and threw as much stuff as i could into it. My phone, clothes, chargers, photos, Anything.

I was Leaving. Disappearing from the world it was what was best for Luhan. I loved him but I was just to much trouble for him. I had to do what was best for him and right now me being here with him wasn't that. Either way he will never love me like I do and him with Ashley was just so .... URGHH!

I deleted all my social networking accounts and I was finishing off writing a letter explaining to Luhan what I had done. Picking up my bag, I slung it over my shoulder and clung on to the goodluck charm from Luhan. Closing the door, Tears dripped down my cheeks and I wiped them away with my free.

I was just about in my car when Sehun ran up to me. Him asking was just making my tears worse. I explained but still he wouldn't let me leave i pushed him away from me and closed the car door. Once I had the window down I shouted out to Sehun, "Tell him, it was for his own good, That I'm sorry but it's what's best for him. And that i have done this because i love him."

After seeing him nod, I reversed out of my parking spot and drove off to my foster mum's house.