Not so nerdy

Dont do this to me

  ^^Amber's face except there's a cut on her nose from it being broken and she has light purple around her eye^^

I woke up on my floor laying my head in my own tiny pool of blood from my nose. It was probably around five in morning like always because of the nightmares. I grabbed a shirt and bit on it as I slowly pushed my nose back in place. I screamed in pain as I fixed my nose thank God the shirt muffled my scream well. After stripping I got into the shower and began to wash the blood of my skin and wounds. I watched as the blood and water poured down the drain. I've never been at such a low point in my life where I wanted to cause self harm until now. I grabbed a blade from the counter and cried as I dragged it across my wrist. Blood leaked out and joined the rest of my blood in the tub.

I cried feeling ashamed of myself, I couldn't even hold myself together. I wanted to hurt myself and it's sad that I'm at that low of a point in my life. I sat down on the bed with my towel rapped around my bruised body. I know I'll have to go to school because the school would call my parents and tell them I'm absent and I don't want them seeing me right now. I looked in the mirror to see the damage. It wasn't too bad compared to what Damon has done before. After laying on my bed for about an hour and a half staring at the ceiling I started to get ready for school. I made sure to wear a hoodie and a long sleeve shirt, but I also wrapped a bandage around the slit on my wrist. After sneaking out of the house I drive to school and everyone was in the hallway. As I walked down the halls I heard people whispering and I knew they were talking about me but I tried my best to ignore them. I continued to walk down the hallway with everyone staring at me. I saw Cole walking in the school with the rest of the bad boys, he held that proud smile on his face until he turned and looked at me. That perfect smile fell and he looked as if he saw the worst thing ever. I pulled my hoodie over my head and began to use the crowd of students going to class as a diversion. I knew he was going to start running towards me but I didn't want him to see me closer up. He maneuvered around the crowd quicker than I could get away and grabbed my shoulder he waited until the hallway cleared to finish his action. By now everyone was gone out of the hallway except his boys. After grabbing me and pushing me gently against the wall he swiftly pushed my hoodie off. He stared at my face then examined the wounds. He moved my head to an angle and I could almost see anger coursing through his veins. His jaw flexed and he balled his hands up to a fist at his side.

"Who did this to you, Amber?" He gritted through his teeth.

"Don't worry about it I got jumped on my way home yesterday in some alley" I lied

"You think Im fuckin stupid don't you? How the fuck do you get jumped in an alley when you u drove home Amber?!" he said raising his voice.

Cole's group of friends walked over to see what he was yelling about and Damon was amongst them. Damon gave me that look to scare me and I know if I say anything close to snitching on him I'd regret it. When I didn't answer he got even more angry.