Hello Ladies, Gents, and all you lovely folks in between! My name is Ash and I am doing the Gender Tag and Sexuality Tag which will maybe change in the future, but I don't know yet. This is a long chapter but whatever, also if you want a face reveal just ask and I will give!
~Gender Tag~
1. How do you self identify your gender, and what does that mean to you?
Well I self identify as Transgender Agender (yes it is a thing). I was born with a female body, but I felt otherwise. I'm transitioning into looking more like a guy but not exactly that masculine. I don't think I fit a specific gender, but I do lean more towards the male gender then the female gender. My pronouns are he/she/they, I like he/they more then she. So if you are talking about me then please use he/they. Back to the topic, what it means to me. Being Transgender Agender means that you are transitioning to look more like the other gender but you still feel in between and not much like your original gender.
2. Describe the style of clothing that you most often wear.
Well almost all the time I wear legging capris and I love them! Also I normally wear a plaid shirt, my brother's shirt, or baggy/long shirts. I always wear gym shoes and I like to give off a less feminine vibe (even though some dude at my school said that he would date me and that he thinks I'm a little too feminine, well I have a girlfriend!)
3. Talk about your choices with body hair. How do you style your hair? Do you have facial hair?
I hate shaving my legs, I just started (because of my mom) and I hate it. I like not having to shave it, it just feels more me. Also I shave my armpit hair (not usually I just do it till my mom notices). I do style my hair, right now it is down to my chin because my mom is a LGBT hater and she thinks I have gender issues. In high school she said she would let me cut it really short and more boyish. Also this November I'm going to be coming out to my mom and telling her why I want short hair! Also no, I don't have facial hair.
4. Have you ever experienced being misgendered? Is so, how often?
Sometimes I get misgendered when I'm out with friends. Some people assume I'm one of my friend's boyfriend. It is usually hilarious when I take off my beanie and my hair falls from it and they just look so embarrassed, but please keep misgendering me! This really only happens when I have a beanie on and when I'm with my friends.
5. Do you experience dysphoria? How does that affect you?
Yes, I experience it everyday I look at myself. I just see this body that I shouldn't have been born with. It is the worst thing to live with, especially when you can't do anything about it. Really the only place I am openly bi or trans* in is on this website or when I'm with my friends, but to my family and everyone else sees me as a woman. It affects me badly, I have always felt ashamed of my body and wanted to hide it, it just isn't fun having dysphoria and living with it daily.
6. Talk about children. Are you interested in having any?
I love children, however I don't want to Birth any. My plan is to adopt and I have a funny story about this that made me mad at my mom. But yeah I want children but not my own blood. So the story is I was talking to my mom and my mom was like," I can't wait till you have kids and I can have grandchildren." I was laughing in my head so badly but to her face I was like," I am going to adopt." She looked almost taken aback for a second and then smiled and said something that I will remember forever. "Then your husband will have to agree with you, he will most likely want to have children with his blood," I was steaming with anger by now and I just walked off. In my mind I had two things. 1. Wouldn't I need to agree to have children, he won't be going through the pain. 2. I might get married to a woman, so jokes on you mom!
7. Talk about money. Is it important to you to provide for a family financially?
Well my future job won't be the best for providing for a family, but I would do my best. The job I want is to be a photographer, and that doesn't pay that much. But hopefully my spouse could help with the paying of the money.
8. Anything else you want to share about your experience with gender?
All I gotta say is to be yourself and just live yourself. If you aren't in the right body, you will be able to in the future.
