So we arrived home and sat on the couch. I still can't believe that we kissed me. The way he speaks to me, the way he treats me he always wants everything to be perect, but he doesn't need that. Only being with him is perfect. We talked about his problems and my problems.
- So you was cutting yourself
- Yes, for like two month. It was because of my ex I already told you about him about how he cheated on me and left me alone. Well, with my thoughts. It might seem crazy but I always had those voices in my head. He understood that, he did and I think he still does but I could never forgive him. He could have told me, he wasn't happy but instead he cheated on me. Like I was no good you know and I did everything for him I loved him I did. Like you in one of your songs sad " and I'm still angry that I may be, I may never trust someone". Well other people hear this as a part o a song but it's even harder if you were in such a situation. A lot of people think, that's not hard to go through shit like that but they think so because they don't understand noone understands. Noone understands the anger and the self-doubt. And these voices keep you always down. It's not like you get motivated for life it's just the opposite.
- You're like exactly saing everythink I've been through.Like you said it's hard, it's not easy and the worst part of it is that noone understand you. They are always like < you will make it and go through this > but it''s easier said than done. As I said that I had sort of demons or voices in my head people always thought I'm carzy but it seems like I'm not the only one he said looking at me. I was relieved he didn't thought I'm crazy or talking shit, well at least he is or was thinking the same shit.
- Believe me you're not the only one I said smiling at him
- You know my song ? he asked breaking the scilence between us
- I told you that I liked it
- So you sort of like my music
- I wouldn't say that I'm not a Stan I said smirking at him
- Really ? He wanted to continue but the door cut him
- FOOD I screamed
- I can open the door he offerd
- I don't think that's a good idea, you know I don't think the delivery boy is expecting Eminem to open him the door I said walking to the door.
I know this boy, he delivers only after 10 pm he's really polite so I gave him a good tip.
- You see what you're doing to me he said to me as I sat down
- Do what to you ? I aked putting our food out of the boxes.
- With you I forget that I'm a famous rapper he said looking me in the eyes
- That's good isn't it I said softly
- It is he said
- Do you want something to drink wine or something I said
- I don't drink, well not anymore
- Oh I'm sorry I didn't know.....
- You don't need to apologize it's okay I can have a water or something
I went to the kitchen and got him a glas water, I really wanted to drink wine but he doesn't drink and I don't want ro drink infornt of him.
- Your water Mr. Mathers
- Thank you dear
We ate, talked and I got really tired. I hope he doesn't notice it.
- Crap he said as his phone rang. I saw a cute picture on his diplay with the name ' Halie Baby'
- Hey little girl he said picking up his phone. No dear everything is okay he continued everything is allright I'll be home soon love you
- Your daughter I said smiling at him
- Yeah she has wondered where I am
- Lovely, Marshall I don't want to take you from your girls so go
- Yeah, so you won't be mad at me he asked standing up
- Mad at you are you kidding? Just go your kids need you superdaddy I said following him to the door.
- Thanks for that amazing day he said pulling me closer to him
- Thank you I said. He kissed me on my cheek said goodby and left.
I closed the door and looked at the clock it was midnight. We spend like the whole day together. I cleaned it all up and got to bed.
I wanted to sleep but there were voices. Not arround me, they were like kind of in me. Some where saying that he's a rapper and doesn't take this seriously others say he's nice smart and difrent to me. And some say that he wouldn't even look at me nobody would. They are all just like Brandon, screams where are they from? I'm lost in my thoughts lost in my own head
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I'm waiting for that rapper guy (an EMINEM fanfic)
RomanceIt's about Stella and Marshall who met at his concert in New York. She didn't know who he was just that he's a famous rapper
