New Beginnings

33

* Happier - Ed Sheeran
May 31st + June 1st, 2019

I was graduating college today with a business degree and a certificate in beauty. I already had a plan set in stone once August rolls around. I'd be spending the rest of summer at home and then at the end of summer, I would flying out to live in England.

It was crazy going over all the memories that have happened within these last two years but I don't regret a single thing.

All the people that I care about and love were coming to watch my graduate and I really hope that I'm doing all of them proud. Especially my mom. I knew she would be there in spirit, watching down on me as I take a huge stepping stone in life.

I've moved on from Harry. After Kass' wedding, I realized that holding onto him is just holding me back, no matter how much I wanted him. I still loved him, just not in the same way.

Aidan and I have formed an even closer bond than the one that we had before. You could say that we were dating but we really wanted to take our time and Aidan understood that completely.

Again, caps and gowns filled an entire stage while family and friends sat in the audience. I knew that high school was going to go by fast but nobody told me that college would go faster, even if I was only there for two years.

Moving our tassels to the side and throwing the caps into the air, the sky didn't have to catch our dreams this time. They've already done that. That's why we were sitting here today.

Making our dreams into a reality once more.

***
"I'm so proud of you!" Kass yelps.

"Thank you! I can't believe all of you are here right now!" I took a look around. All the boys were here, including Harry and I gave him a small smile.

"We wouldn't miss it for the world," Louis says cheerfully.

"What do you say we all go back to my house and have a cookout?" Everyone bounces with joy at the mention of food and we head back to my house.

***
Harry
I couldn't help but feel jealous and hurt by seeing Aidan and Carter so close. I guess she really did move on. She was never one to let anything hold her back and that's why she is one of the strongest woman I know.

Carter was beaming with happiness. The kind of happiness that I wish I felt. The kind of happiness that I wish I was giving to her and not him. But it wasn't place anymore. It was his.

I honestly don't think that I will ever fully get over her. She took my life and she flipped it around for the better but now that she isn't mine anymore, life hasn't been the same.

Every morning that I wake up, I hope to see her laying next to me, her hair sprawled across the pillow. But she's not and she never will be. It killed me. It left me with hundreds of scars knowing that she has moved on with someone new but I practically made her do that.

I told her at the wedding how we were never right but those words couldn't have been any further from the truth. The boys told me that soon enough I'll find the happiness that she has found but nobody could compare to the love that Carter gave to me.

Carter
I saw Harry sitting by himself, clearly deep in thought. I gave Aidan a kiss on the cheek and told him that I would be right back.

I sat down next to Harry, not saying anything at first.

"It means a lot that you are here," I finally say.

"Really?" He asks surprised.

"Well, yeah. I love you and I need you here with him on a day like this. I needed everybody that is here right now with me," I say.

"You don't love me in the same way." He looks away from me and focuses on the woods.

"You're right but that doesn't mean I don't hold any love for you. You were the best thing that ever happened to me," I say to him honestly.

"You still are the best thing to me," I hear him say quietly as he gets up and walks towards Louis to talk to him.

I close my eyes and take a deep breath in before letting it out.

***
"We gotta head on out and get to the airport but we'll call you and facetime you and everything else while we are away," Niall shouts out the car window. "I love you!"

"I love you too! I'll miss you guys so much!" The boys and Kass were going on tour for two years tomorrow. Kass was Niall's photographer for his tour and now she would be it for all the boys. I'd be attending some of their shows in London and I couldn't wait.

Harry
As I'm about to get into the car, Aidan yells my name and runs over to me. This should be good.

"Harry, listen, I'm sorry if all of this is weird for you. Trust me, it's a little weird for me too but you mean a lot to her, mate. I know that Carter and I are technically together now but I see the way she looks at you. She'll never stop loving you," he says in rushed sentences.

"Yeah," I breath out. "Take good care of her for me, okay?"

"I will, don't worry." I take the lad in for a hug which he seemed surprised about but for some reason, all of this gave me some kind of closure. "Have a safe flight!"

*** june 1st, 2019
Niall
Tonight was a first night back as One Direction. We were starting the tour off in Australia and I couldn't wait to be back up on the stage with my brothers.

Zayn declined our offer on taking part of the reunion which was upsetting but it also made since because we would be touring Made In The Am and he was the one who decided to leave us.

The way touring was going to work was a bit all over the place. We were starting if off in Australia, then going to Asia, America, and then Europe. London would be our last stop.

Liam
The boys and I were in our huddle as we heard the screams in the arena get louder, indicating that the intro video had started.

"It's the first night of the first leg of this tour, lads. Lets make this a night that they will never forget."

We all stand on the platform and the music begins, the fans somehow even louder than they were minutes before.

When the platform locks into place on the stage and the fans could actually see, they went wild. This was a feeling that could never top anything else that you've ever felt.

Louis
The crowd was absolutely amazing. They were singing and jumping and dancing. It actually made me tear up. It felt so good to be back on stage with these lads.

"How are we all feeling tonight?" I say into the microphone and the fans go nuts. "We are so thankful that all of you have stuck with us and waited for us. We made a promise to all of you that we would be back and never did we make that promise."

A promise is a promise. These fans deserve the world and I still can't believe that they were here supporting us. It's a teamwork between us and them and it always will be.

Harry
"Thank you so much for having us Brisbane, you have been incredible tonight and we can't wait to come back to this place. We love you very very much," my voice cracking slightly. "We've been One Direction and I hope you all had an amazing night, thank you so much!"

We run off the stage, the adrenaline still coursing through every inch of our bodies.

"That was fucking incredible!" Niall screams and we all agree.

I couldn't be happier being back with my boys for the next two years touring the world. Maybe things actually would get better and after tonight, I know that they will.

*****
Authors note
As much as I love solo one direction, i need a reunion :(