Broken pieces (Lesbian Love Story)

Deception

Chapter 15

Raven's Pov

I can't fall for her. I can't. No matter how hard I try to stay away from her, something, just guides me even closer to her.

Im damaged goods.

She's been through way to much. She deserves someone good. Someone perfect.

Someone as perfect as her. When I look at her I see this innocent beautiful girl that deserves the world and that I cannot give to her. Im broken. Im useless.

I entered my room and closed the door behind me, The lights were off so I turned them back on. I jumped at the sight in front of me. audrey was layed sprawled on my bed, under the covers. She was asleep. I walked up to the bed and I shook her a bit to wake her up. She moved around a bit but she didnt wake, so I attempted to wake her up again.

She opened her eyes and let out a small yawn. " hey" she said softly. " I was waiting on you to get back" She stretched a bit. " Well im here. now go" I said. I sat on the bed and started to untie my shoes. " What? no I came to have some fun" I heard shuffle around on the bed. "Not today" I pulled my shoes off and I sat up to look at her. She was now sitting on the bed. The covers were off. She didn't have a shirt on, her bra was pink and her breasts plump. My eyes made there way down to her chest. She made her way on top of me and she brought her lips next to my ear. " Stop acting like you dont want me" she whispered. She started to suck on my neck.

Me and Audrey has fooled around a couple of times before. She was my go to when I wanted an easy fuck. She made her way to my lips and I kissed her back.

Maybe I kissed her back because I wanted something to help me forget about sarah. For some reason this kiss didn't feel right. I didn't want it. It made me feel like shit.

I pulled away from Audrey. I heard my room door squeak open so I turned my head to see who it was.

Sarah was standing at the door. Her bottom lip trembling. Her face held this emotion of pain.

I quickly pushed Audrey off of me when I looked back up at the door she was gone. I stood up from the bed and I quickly ran out. I heard the downstairs door slam shut. Shit she's going to wake everyone up. I ran downstairs and made my way out of the door.

"Sarah wait!" I yelled. She stopped in her spot and turned around her eyes red and tears continuously falling down. " That's why you didn't want to kiss me because of her" she asked, her voice cracking . Before I could let any words out she continued. " You don't really care about me, all that acting like you were trying to be there for me crap was bullshit" she yelled. Her face red. " I do care about you " I said softly, taking a few steps closer to her. Once she noticed that I was getting closer she took a few more steps back. "Don't come anywhere near me" she wiped her eyes. "I told myself that I deserved to have everything bad come my way after I killed my parents. Then I met you and it was like being around you tucked all those bad thoughts away" she sobbed.

"I do care about you sarah" I tried walking closer but she just continued to walk back. "Bullshit" she said.

she let out a small chuckle. It was fake I could tell. " was that suicide story even true " she placed her hand on her forehead and shook her head, still laughing. " Your talking crazy now " I uttered. She was angry, she was finally letting all the anger and pain she's been holding back for days out.

"Is that ring even your fathers, or did some hoe give it to you for your birthday or something" she asked sarcastically. "Oh oh wait is your father actually in jail" she laughed.

"You know what Sarah, fuck you" I said. Her laughter ceased. I could feel the anger build up inside me. " Your shit yourself if you could sit there and question me about the worse shit that has happened in my life, Your no different then any other girl I've been with, you assume, you fucking assume. I wouldn't ever make up shit like that" I couldn't stop myself.

" You think your the only fucking person with problems, the world isn't revolved around you Sarah. I've been through shit that you wouldn't even imagine, I've been through hell since the day that my father left my mother. I was eleven. She was so angry that she kept me away from my own father. She didn't allow him to see me. She turned to drugs and she found a new guy and do you know who was left there to suffer Sarah ? " I could feel the pain start to creep up in my head. Everything was flowing out of me and I just couldn't stop. " Me, Sarah, me. Her new boyfriend would come into my room every night, and he'd do these horrible nasty things to me" I sniffed.

" Raven stop " she whispered.

"I'd beg my mom, to get him off of me, but she was to stoned out to even care. It continued to happen until one day I couldn't take it anymore. I waited until he went to work, my mom was always on all type of shit so she was mostly asleep half of the time. I ran to my neighbors. This older lady, around her fifties. I begged to use her phone and she let me. I didn't call the cops though I called my father because even though that fucking lady made me go through shit, I still tried to look out for her because I felt like that dope feen in my house wasn't my mother. like she wasn't herself" The anger was still boiling inside of me.

"Long story short my father was at my door in an instant, except he didn't come alone. He came with his pistol, he told me to wait in his truck and he sat inside of that house waiting for him to get home, seconds inside that truck started to feel like minutes, then minutes started to feel hours. Then finally he came and he walked into that house without a goddamn clue about what was waiting for him inside. two minutes later all I seen was flashing lights through the window and all I heard was three gunshots. back to back to back " I closed my eyes remembering every detail of that day.

" I won't lie and sit here and say that I didn't want him to die, because I did. I wanted him to pay for every night that he came in to my room " I gritted my teeth together.

" So you see Sarah, I'm no good, I didn't kiss you because I'm no fucking good" I yelled.

" Audrey came into my room, and yea we exchanged a few kisses I'll admit to that, but I pulled away because you were on my mind, I wanted you " I took a deep breath, trying to calm myself down. I covered my face with the palm of my hands.

It was silent, I felt her soft hand touch my arm so I removed them from my face and looked up. She placed her other arm on my cheek. " you can't let your past define you" she whispered " Someone strong told me that. Remember" looking into her eyes helped me calm.

" If your no good, then I'm no good either" she gave me a small smile and she slid her hand into mine. I put my finger under her chin.

I lifted her face pressed my lips against hers.