ʳᵉᵐᵉᵐᵇᵉʳ ᵐᵉ ▸ 𝐏𝐈𝐄𝐓𝐑𝐎 𝐌𝐀𝐗𝐈𝐌𝐎𝐅𝐅 ✓

five.

REMEMBER ME.
005. | ❛ what if. ❜

MY BODY AND SOUL WAS BLESS TO BE LOVED BY YOU. You can learn a lot from a body. How a life was lived. What was their pain. Suffering life experiences. Even if they were loved. But what a body can't tell you is why and for those left behind that seems to be the only question that matters.

But the why shouldn't hurt be your worry, Pietro. You have to know that I was happy and loved and that my time is to come and when it does, I was happy. No matter what fights we had or how angry I could get at you, I was happy. I had a truly blessed life to have had you. My life as you know wasn't always the best. Being a hacker was my lifestyle because that's all that could feed me at the moment, until SHIELD found me.

I would like to imagine that you are there in my final moments. It's a morbid thing to say but it's true. Because I know that in your waking hours you'd wonder what I would say to you in my last words. How I died or even if you could've saved me.

That's what I don't want you to get stuck in. The what ifs.

What if I hadn't gone?
What if I was quicker?
What if everyone double checked?
What if...

Don't get stuck in the constant loop, because I wouldn't want you to miss out on life. I'm sounding inconsiderate now but if you me, I hate to lose a fight with you. I believe that there is a light at the end of the tunnel for me, and for you as well. I believe that you'll find love again, even if it's light years away and you might not accept it at first. I believe that there are second loves for people and that hopefully you'll find yours.

xoxo,
Rue