"I'm gonna take you to the ocean. So you can see the clear blue water and feel the cool wind blowing through your beautiful hair" he promised me when we were 15
"Id love a nice beach day with my favorite" I share my thoughts with him
He smiles at me, sometime says he's hiding some thing. I move on not wanting to bother him.
The next week he got a car. his first set of plans to take me to the ocean.
He opened the door for me like the gentleman he is, saying "m'lady" with a smirk.
"Thank ya sir" I replied setting the picnic basket with snacks onto the floor of the passenger seat.
We listened to oldies that car ride. I've always been into them and I had gotten him obsessed as well.
The 7 hour car ride seemed like 3 minutes.
We got out of the car running to the ride as it washes along the sand.
He takes my hand and spins me around in circles giggling as he stops and grips me in a hug.
We walked along the shore that night for 3 hours not ever wanting to leave.
By the time it was pitch black we were sitting in the sand under a tree. He had started coughing.
"Nick, are you okay?" I say rubbing his back
"I'm fine baby, you worry about yourself," he says "I love you"
"I love you too" I said kissing his cheek as he starts coughing again.
"Nick, are you sick? you don't feel warm,"
"Baby, I'm fine" he's lying, I can tell by his eyes.
"What are you hiding from me?" I say louder than before.
"Lexi, I don't want you to worry about it," he says trying to let it slide.
"No," I yell "I'm not letting it slide, you've told me everything since we were 14 why won't you tell me now?"
"Fine Lexi," he says giving up "I was diagnosed with cancer"
It felt like my heart was ripping in twelve pieces. he had a family history of this, none of those family members survived this terrible disease.
I cried out, not caring how loud I am.
"This is why I didn't want to tell you" Nick says holding me close stroking my hair
"How bad is it?" I asked him hoping for the best
"They don't think I'm going to last much longer" he says looking down.
That was the start of my life shattering experience.
