I woke up in a hospital bed. I jumped up and looked for my love only to find tons of other beds and other women.
The nurses saw me and rushed over.
"Are you okay Lexi?" one asked "how are you feeling?"
She was shouting to me like I was retarted.
"I'm good. I'm good. take me to Nick." I slung my legs over the edge
"Not so fast," the other said "your boyfriend is going to have to survive without you for a while."
"What?" who is this woman, telling me I can't see my boyfriend
"Your in a rehab center dear," the other chimed in "you'll be out in a month."
"No no no" I said shaking my head and grabbing my hair "he won't survive that long"
The nurses checked my machines in silence.
One of the nurses name was Hellan. the other was Kelly.
"Why am I here anyways? I'm not on drugs.."
"Your hear your depression, anxiety and anorexia Hun," Kelly says
I looked at my arms. IVs, medical tape, tubes, needles, blood.
I looked up at the window, there was an exit that was unlocked.
I looked around. no nurses.
I stood up, ripping the IVs off. I took off running out the door. I ended up in the waiting room for treatments. I ran into Nicks room which I thankfully recognized.
I started crying and ran to his bed. I knew he was alive, he just looked dead.
I felt his pulse, still beating.
I opened his window and breathes the scent of fresh ocean air. Oceans always made me feel awake.
I heard someone running down the halls and I hid in the closet. I looked at my arms, blood.
Blood
Blood
So much blood.
His door swung open and someone yelled.
"She's not here!!"
The door slammed shut and I ran to his bed. I laid on his lap. shutting my eyes.
If I was going to die, might as well die in his arms.
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*next morning*
I felt his leg jerk and I rolled grabbing the railing just in time.
"Lexi!" he yelled, "what are you doing here"
His throat sounded scratchy.
I could tell he was weak.
"I couldn't leave you," I choked out
"Babe, you have to go back," he looks concerned, "look baby your bleeding all over,"
He grabbed my arm so gently. he inspected my arms, torn from needles being ripped from them.
"No," I said "I'm never leaving you, I promised."
"Please, all I want is for you to be healthy, and happy, this will make you better baby, I'm not gonna be here long" he pauses to breathe and take a drink.
He clears his throat, "as much as I want to be with you forever, I know I'm gonna be gone soon. I won't be here to tell you your beautiful," he starts coughing "please" he coughs "your the most" cough "beautiful girl I've ever-" he grabs the bucket and starts throwing up blood.
I rub his back telling him it's okay,
He stops and looks at me. "I've ever seen" his voice raspy, bright stunning blue eyes studying my face.
"Don't say that Ni!" I tell him "don't lose hope,"
"Lexi. I'm gonna be a vegetable soon, you know I'm not gonna make it, wake up! you need help Lex! you need someone other than me, you need to know how to treat yourself"
I open my mouth to respond but all that comes out is a sob.
"One last thing," he says "it's okay if you move on, I don't mind, just be wise. don't let a douche hurt you."
"I will never move on. I can't move on."
"Lexi, I'll always be with you, in here," he points to my heart, "and in here," he points to my head.
"I love you," I tell him truthfully
"I love you too baby,"
The door swung open and Hellan rushed to me and grabbed me, strapping me onto a bed as I kicked and screamed
"No! don't make me leave"
"I will always love you lexi! please
never forget me!" he says
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So yeah this story is based on a true story,
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