Tainted Wings

She was an angel, can you believe it?
An angel all to myself
She was sent from above
To protect me and love me unconditionally
She was flawless and full of beauty
She meant the world to me
She only scolded me when I messed up
She was truly perfect for me
But only until she wasn't

I would wake up early in the morning
To her angelic voice
Singing to me from my dreams
Wishing me an amazing day
And it would be
But only until it wasn't

She would wash my fears away
She loved me
She listened to my problems
And helped me through them
She would let me skip school to be with her
She took me to my doctors
Praying on the road so we wouldn't crash
She would protect me from anything
But only until she wouldn't

She loved me, I swear she did
She was my angel, you see
She could say anything, and I'd believe her
She was my everything, my Savior
She could save me from myself
But only until she wouldn't

You see, I was too young to see
She wasn't really an angel
She did the best she could
She took care of me when I couldn't
She fed me and bathed me
She did the best she could, yes
But only until she wouldn't

One day those sweet angelic lullabies
Became rancid screams 'get up' and 'get ready'
She no longer soothed my fears, she bacame them
She no longer made me breakfast
She no longer rushed to my side
And after a while with this new 'normal' I realized
That my guardian angel had tainted her wings
And I was to blame.

From six to four kids, and two pets
Our happy little home
Instead felt like a war zone
I was walking in eggshells awaiting my next mistake

Suddenly I was always to blame
But she'd never tell me why or how
All I ever wanted was to open up to her
Suddenly soft words turned into a war
A war of constant fighting and frustration
Suddenly the person whom I'd though was my angel
Had now become my biggest fear
And everything took a turn for the worst

In the blink of an eye, everything was gone
Two homes, one pet, two kids
And suddenly it was all my fault
But how, what have I done?
She says it doesn't matter
That I was still to blame for it all
Wait, no, I'm sorry. Let me explain..