Dev POV
"Happy birthday to you!! Happy birthday to you!! Happy birthday Kanani Happy birthday to you"
Today my baby girl turns 2 and it's like she was born yesterday. 2 years and I still wake up shocked that I'm a daddy.
She's already walking and talking a bit. She's really smart and believe me when I tell you she's one of the most beautiful little girls out here.
As far for me and Ania were still together. We've had some up and downs the last 2 years but we pushed through them and we now love each other more than ever. I decided college wasn't the way for me because I couldn't play basketball due to the coma. So my dad opened up a center for the kids in the neighborhood where I coach a basketball team of 6th graders.
I'm not gonna lie I love my job and I'll do anything for those kids. I work 6 days out of the week but I do make time for my daughter.
Ania been making her dream come true. She's been in the studio recording lots if music and more than proud of her.
Now I'm not gone lie and say I don't miss being the typical teen partying and having fun. Because I do miss it I really do. But I now have two important ladies in my life that's worth more than any party out there.
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(Day after Kanani's Birthday)
It 7 o'clock and I'm finally home from work! Today the boys had been irritating me so I'm just beyond tired.
I walk in the house to find my mom cooking while chatting with Ania.
"Hey Ma!" I say while hugging her.
"Hey Dev how was work" she says as she continues to cook
"Work was hectic" I reply while walking over to Ania with a smile on my face
"Hey baby"
"Hey bae" she says in reply. I give her a kiss and tell her Imma gonna go shower.
After my shower I didn't want anything more but to sleep. So I quickly ran down stairs to eat. At the table with me was kanani and tasia.
When kanani saw me she immediately walked over to me. I played with her for little then went upstairs to lie down.
While I was lying down Ania joined me. I held her in my arms tight and this was the greatest feeling ever. She looked in my eyes as it starred in hers, then I whispered
"Baby I love you"
"I love you to Dev" she responded and sealed the moment with a kiss. We continued kissing for a while as the kissing began to become more intimate and more passionate.
I knew where this was going but I had to stop it because I was just too tired.
"Bae wait not tonight"
"Dev you always say this"
"I know, I know but look I'm really really tired today baby"
"Ugh whatever I guess Dev" she said as she rolled and covered herself completely.
"I love you I said hoping to lighten her mood a little"
"Mmhhmm" she replied and we both went to sleep.
Ania POV
Lately things have been confusing in my life. Seems like the only time I can set my mind free is when I'm in the studio, or sleeping.
I feel like Dev is hiding something from me, or just tired of me. After last night I feel as if I discuss him, or he's just not sexually attracted to me anymore.
Sometimes I just want to break down and cry. I'm not ready to lose someone I'm deeply in love with. Especially someone who's the father of my child.
"Briana I'm telling you, I feel like Dev is hiding something, or just bored with having sex with me" I said leaving the studio.
"Girl stop being stupid, maybe he actually is tired like he told you - stop over thinking things" Briana said.
"It's hard not to over think things when he does this everyday, every night, every our, every second, shall I continue?" I say driving out the parking lot.
These next few days Kanani will be with Dev's parents, so lately I've been thinking I should do something sexy for Dev, have him come home to a nice massage and shower sex or something.
Just want to show him that I still got it, and that we'll never have to get bored with eachother.
"Sometimes I feel like Devontay doesn't love me as much as he used to..." I say pulling into Bri's drive way.
"That man loves you and y'all beautiful baby girl Kanani with all his heart. Maybe you just need to talk to him and see what's going on in his head."
"Briana last night he rejected me when I tried to give him a little pleasure. That's not even the first time this has happened.
Been this way for a month or so now. It's gotten to the point that I forgot what making love to him is like." Tears slowly begin to form in my eyes.
I refuse to ever cry over any man when it comes to a broken heart. But for the first time in my life I'm breaking down. I'm hurting so bad inside I don't know what to do anymore. Trey songz was right when he said love feels like a heart attack.
Devontay knows how I feel, and I've been by his side through thick and thin so if he is thinking about leaving me, then he has a lot of hell coming his way.
Seems like the only bright lite in my life is my daughter Kanani. She's literally my world, and everyday I'm striving for success all because of her.
Kanani will grow up to know and feel what it's like to be a beautiful, strong independent women. Having a man in her life will just be a bonus.
For Devontay on the hand, he has a lot if explaining to do.
Briana is right we do need to talk, because me sitting here crying isn't going to be an everyday thing.
