Fragments [kookv]

•19: Kookie•

"What did you do?"

I said between my gritted teeth with my hands balled in fist and my eyes shaking in anger while they just glanced at me and ignored my question with a sigh.

"What did you do to him!?"

I shouted and finally, that made him stand up, slamming his hands on the table.

"How dare you raise your voice like that! How disrespectful! Is this the influence you got from hanging out with a vagrant!?"

"No dad. This is me asking you a proper question. What did you do to him?"

I asked in a calmer tone and relaxed body but my eyes were still giving off an intense stare.

"Son, we didn't do anything. Just let him be, okay? You and him, you are not meant for each other."

My mother answered, giving me an apologetic look but my heart painfully beat with the words she said. Slowly, I feel crying more than getting furious and my tough stare became a soft gaze.

"Why? Because he is poor? Because he came from a difficult household? Why do you always...always decide based on that?"

I said, almost mumbling the last part. I am having difficulty to speak when I'm trying to stop my tears. My lips and hands were shaking and I felt my chest tightenning as I swallow a lump in my throat.

"He's nice, talented and smart...You...You don't know how perfect he is. Mom, dad...He's different and I love him...So please, stop hurting him."

I failed at trying to calm myself down and my tears flowed as my body trembled uncontrollably while I try to supress my sobs.

"Jungkook, stop this. You're still too young to talk about love. Our world is harsh and you need to be strong. Love is only for the weak, son. Just let him be and move on. Forget about him and live your life as expected from a Jeon."

I hanged my head low. Finally, I calmed down. I took a deep breath and released a sigh of defeat. I felt that it was useless to talk with them. They don't understand, no, they don't want to understand.

"Love...You don't have the right to speak about love. You know nothing about it. Sorry to disappoint you but I'll only live for myself and living for myself means loving him for the rest of my life. If you won't accept it, then I'll gladly leave your lives and the 'Jeon'."

Those were my last words before leaving the house and going to our meeting place.

Hoping that you'll come. I believed in the love you felt for me because that's the only thing I can do; To hope and believe.

Because...

You were always there for me. Through the good and the worst moments of my life.

You caused me sadness at times but never did you fail to make me the happiest.

You made me cry couple of times but you always wipe them away.

I am a mess but you looked at me like I'm perfect.

I am worthless but you treasured me nevertheless.