I read a quote today,
'Happiness is a choice, not a result. Nothing will make you happy until you choose to be happy. No person will make you happy unless you decide to be happy. Your happiness will not come to you. It can only come from you'
But how can this be when just the thought of you puts a smile on my face and makes me happy, because thinking of you could never make me unhappy, you were my happiness.
How can happiness come from me when I didn't know what happiness was until I knew you? Your smile. Your laugh. You are happiness. You were my happiness.
But now you're gone, and with you went my happiness.
I read a quote today,
'Don't let your happiness depend on something you may lose'
I wish I read this before falling for you, because I lost you, you stole my heart, you stole my happiness.
You stole the key to my happiness and I don't know where you put, will I ever get that key back? I highly doubt it. That key was the key to the happiness to my life, the key to you, happiness.
Why did you do this, why did you let me fall for you, as I fell you caught the key but let me fall. With all your compliments, it made the world make sense, it taught me the meaning to happiness.
I read a quote today,
'no Expectations, no disappointment'
And my expectations were way too high, I expect too much and I just get disappointed. My expectations crushed my happiness.
One word to explain my life, disappointment. Everything I do I expect too much and end up disappointed every time.... Every time without fail, there it goes, my happiness.
I read a quote today,
'You Deserve to be happy. You deserve to live a life you are excited about. Don't let others make you forget that'
But how do I deserve to be happy when I no longer know what happiness is, since I lost you, my happiness.
I had a life I was excited about when I thought of you, you were so amazing and unpredictable, life was amazing with the thought of you, all my happiness.
You didn't make me forget that, you taught me how to believe that, that life could be amazing and fun and that life could keep going, you taught me happiness.
I read a quote today,
'we accept the love we think we deserve'
I didn't think I deserved your love and I was right because I didn't get the chance to accept it, I guess I didn't deserve any of you, even after you became my happiness.
I accepted your love because of the happiness that came with it but it turns out that the happiness was temporary.
You arrived in my life, you taught me happiness, you showed me what I deserved, then you stole it all away.
You took the happiness you were giving me and gave it to someone else, sometimes I wish I never knew your happiness.
Because now all I want is to know that feeling again, the feeling of your happiness.
