Poems ❤

11. Confused

Im so confused,
I wanted to know everything,
Why I have to cry like this.
Different emotions,
Trying to escape into me
To release everything that..
I myself have kept for so many years.

I needed time and space
I needed to be alone
I needed to think why I feel this

"Scared, Pained, Sad, Mad"

Everything was like a missing piece in my mind.
That I feel so fucked up,
I was devastated to know what's wrong,
And wish not to feel the same before,
Like how im out of mind to hold a knife
To let the knife holds my life.
And it's because of you...

You never dared to love this girl.
You never seem her as a pretty one.
You see her as only a trash,
You never know it hurts me much.

Before, my world is only for you
But now I regreted I fall for the man who loves to break every girl's heart.
And im one of those who change herself just to stop this kind of crap.

For you it was only a kind of game.
That we are the player and you are the ruler.
The one deciding who shall lives and who shall die.
But fate change.
I am now the ruler and I can now manipulate your heart and mind.