Divergent - Eric

Time to take two steps foward and only one back

'One week, just one week' I tell myself as I lye in bed not willing to leave the warm comforts and the safety of my bedroom. My father is awake. I can hear the sound of a spoon connecting with the bowl as he eats his breakfast. I am afraid and I don't want to live like this anymore. As much as I could never please her I miss my mother, if you could even call her one. She made my dad happy, now all he does is go out and get drunk then come home and abuse me. He would whip me with his belt and slap me, no sign of remorse. He would wake up in the morning not remembering what happened the previous night. I guess that's a good thing. Being in erudite means that we have to be smart and make smart decisions but is beating your only child, your daughter you once loved a smart decision? It's not and I can't wait till this week is over so I can finally leave my father and become apart of a place where I belong. I feel as if I belong in dauntless. I would suck at candor as I have kept the secret of my father beating me for several years and I always try to lie my way out of things.... I'm thinking dauntless. Just the thought of what they do makes my blood pump with excitement when I was little I used to have this friend and we would sneak out of our faction and play in the dirt and fight with sticks and run away from all our worries and it worked... For a while until his parents found out than told my parents and that's when they started pushing me and verbally abusing me. I just want a little happiness, I want to be free, run around with the wind in my hair and be around people who understand what I feel. After this week there is no more trying to be someone I'm not, I will be the real me the real spencer shai.

The week went by fast and before I new it the time had come to take our test. I was so nervous that I thought I was going to wet myself... No pun intended. As I waited outside the door it felt like I was going into cardiac arrest my heart was beating out of my chest. As the door opened a woman told me to come in. She pointed to the chair and I sat down.
She turned around with a some blue drink and told me to drink it. I looked at her wanting more answers like what the hell this was but new it wasn't the right time. I took the drink in my hands and washed it down my throat. It was bitter but I did not taste it for long before I was out. All of a sudden I was in a white room, I heard a voice telling me to pick either the knife, the cheese or the meat. I thought about it before the voice interrupted me again 'choose now' hold up who does this bitch think she is? ' CAN YOU HOLD ON A SECOND IM TRYING TO PICK' I yell at the voice but just as I was going to grab the knife it disappeared. ' oh you have got to be kidding me' I say before this old lady came out of nowhere asking for help 'okay,okay what's wrong?' I ask her trying to remain calm. 'Help me, help me' she says again. All of a sudden a dog comes out of nowhere about to attack her as I bend Down trying to calm the crazed creature. It works for a bit but when I tell the lady to run the dog snaps back into its previous mood chasing after the lady. I jump on the dog in order to stop it and grab its neck and turn until I hear a snap. I did not want to kill the rabid creature but I had to, it was going to attack the lady. Just as I was about to ask her if she was hurt or if she was ok I snap out of the dream, if that's what you would call it and was back in the room. The girl is typing away on her computer muttering words of.. Confusion? Uh ok then. She turns to me with a strange look also worry. ' your test results were inconclusive' she says 'what? But that's impossible' I reply with disbelief 'not impossible, just rare, very rare' 'what does this make me?' I ask slightly worried that I will have to stay in erudite 'it means that you got erudite (crap) abnegation and dauntless' 'yes! Dauntless'I thought, just what I wanted 'you are called a divergent, it is rare and is a threat to your life, you can't tell your friends, your family, no one, you understand? I put you down as dauntless so no one will get suspicious' she says in a rushed kind of tone 'thank you but which one do I choose?' I ask hoping she will say the one I want 'choose what your body tells you, but you have to leave, tell your parents that the test made you feel sick so I told you to go home, remember don't tell anyone!' She says to me slightly pushing me out the back door 'and for the sake of your life, let's hope you make the right choice' and with that I'm outside the building and the door is slammed in my face.
Shit, the pressures on now!