In Heat

Chapter 4

The song above is something I feel Sam would be listening to while he was in his room so if you want to listen to it while reading that part you are more than welcome to.

XOXO
-JinxedWolf
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Sam P.O.V

I stared out my open window into the night sky. Sitting criss cross on my bed, the lights off and music softly playing through my room. I didn't want to wake my dads up so I had to be as quiet as possible. The sound of the crickets outside and my music sang softly together into a pretty melody. I watched all my neighbors lights turn off, one house at a time. Everyone was asleep now. Except for me.

This was always the time when I was myself. Completely 100% myself because nobody was around to judge me and I could let my emotions run free without the fear of being seen as weak or a crybaby.

This was my time to let everything out. This was my time to think, my time to go through everything that happened that day. And tonight, my thoughts were bombarded with Colby's beautiful, baby blue eyes.

How could somebody so beautiful be so cruel as to take advantage of me like that? Telling me he was going to take me somewhere safe and then crawl onto me like I was just a toy for him to play with? Why did I even trust him in the first place? Why did I follow him? Why did I want to nuzzle my face into his side? Why did I want to be near him? Why do I still want to be near him even after what he did to me that day?

I replayed everything in my head over and over. How he told me he'd take me somewhere safe, how he drove me to some abandoned house far from our school, how he crawled onto me, how I ran out like my life depended on it, how I had to call my parents and tell them everything that happened.

And now here I am. 2AM, crying because I know I will have to return to school in the morning and possibly face the boy I ran from only hours before. What will he say? What will he do? Will he be angry at me? Probably. I didn't mean to hurt him in any way, I was just petrified and felt like I needed to get away and that's what I did.

At first, I felt as if I had a connection to this boy, like we could have been something. But now all I feel from him is a mix of sadness and anger. I wish I had never trusted him in the first place.

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The sound of my alarm clock ringing woke me out of my sleep. I rolled out of bed, turning it off and turning off my music. I guess I had left it on all night. Once I remembered that I was in heat, my stomach sank.

I searched for any possible way of covering the smell and decided to just spray myself with a shit ton of cologne. Hopefully this helps. After getting dress, breakfast, and brushing my teeth, I was out the door to hop on the bus.

A short ride later and I had arrived back where everything started yesterday. I let out a huge sigh and made my way into the building. Everyone could clearly smell the cologne on me but I'd rather them smell that than the scent from being in heat.

The beginning of my day was mostly normal except I found myself looking for Colby in the halls and being disappointed almost when I didn't see him. I'm not sure what the purpose of looking for him was but I couldn't stop myself. Even while I was sad and angry because of him, I felt like I needed to see him.

Eventually lunch time rolled around. Many kids left campus to get food or went to the cafeteria. But like most days, I found myself sitting under the staircase alone without a meal. I didn't have any friends and I'd rather just by alone than be in the busy, loud cafeteria. I usually just played on my phone until the bell rang.

"Hey..." an all too familiar voice said after a few games of Angry Birds. I didn't know what to do. Do I run again? Do I talk to him and listen to his stupid excuses and probably forgive him even though he doesn't deserve it? Do I break down and cry? Because that's what I feel like doing right now.