Why... Why can't I stop thinking about you. Everytime I try to forget about you just pop right back into my mind. Am I just weak, or have your grown on me? Why do you have to be such an amazing person? Every time I hear you're looking for someone new, or that you've found someone else, it hurts then you vent to me about him. I would drop my funeral to see you. And If I could stop, I would but I cant. Your smile lights up my day.... Your personality keeps me happy... And your interest just kept me coming. Why do I have to be the person I am? Why do I to lookthe way I do? Why do I have goals I can't meet? I'd give my heart and everything, but you'd rather be with someone who just started talking to you. I told myself I got it. I don't. I cant. I shouldn't. Why can't I get over you? Because I constantly remind myself of something I didn't try hard enough for. How can you not see the beauty in yourself? You point out too many flaws when you should be focusing on your perfections. Why can't you love yourself the way I love you? Why is it that every time I find myself venting, it's about you? Because I'm weak. Am I too young to be feeling this way? Am I too young to focus on people like I do? Am I falling too hard? Do you just stick around because you feel bad or because you actually care? Do you actually think of me as a friend or just a nuisance? Would it actually hurt you to lose me? If I were to die tomorrow would you care? I need to stop... But I can't. How can no one ever get you? How come you turn down everything that could've been good? I want to be there for you but you dont let me. I think that I'm just a best friend and everything will stay at that. She thinks shell never find anyone. But yet I found her? You dont have to put yourself down you're beautiful, smart, and your personality is amazing. Why can't you be like that more often? You're the best but call yourself the worst. You're a queen but you call yourself a peasant. You deserve more but you take less. Why? You think most men are just here to add you to their collection? You think every time you let your guard down you'll get broken? I seen all the pain thats been caused and I just want to pick up the pieces and build a better place. I understand the last person you gave your heart to took the key and tossed it, but I'm just here to let you know I'd be the one to swim through the oceans to find it. If it meant I could have you for five minutes I wouldn't hesitate. I'd drop everything and go out for it. But you'd rather have a man that wouldn't look your direction? Wouldn't look you eye to eye to see your perfection? It makes me sad to think you never even think about it and when your reply was "Oh" I lost my mind, because I clearly got another rejection. I dont know if you think I deserved it, or if you didnt know what to say in the moment. All I know is that no matter what happens I'm here for you 24/7 no matter the cost.
