im sorry and i love u </3 xxx
I hit send.
Oh, shit. I didn't mean to send it but I watch the icon switch from delivered to read. He ignores me.
I was expecting this but rejection still washes through me. My heart is bleeding so badly. I bite my tongue. Hard. The blood washes through my mouth, tasting like iron, but hot and sweet. I wrap my arms around me and try to hold myself together. I am surprised that I am still alive. I wish that I wasn't.
I drop the phone onto the bed beside me and curl up into a ball. I suppress the sobs that try to escape. I must be strong. I cannot tell anyone. I do not want to embarass him. He doesn't want a girl like me loving him. Boring light brown hair. Muddy eyes. Short with fat legs. My heart burns, a hole appearing bigger and bigger in my chest. The intensity of the heat is crippling.
I thought that no-one could make it on their own but I must. Be strong, be strong. I try but I feel so hurt inside. Burning. I compose my face which I'm sure should have been reduced to ashes by now, and gather myself together.
Be strong.
YOU ARE READING
Im sorry and i love u </3
Teen FictionBoys, however stupid they are, they can break you. I wish that I didn't love him, but I do. He has broken me so badly, but I would rather that he was happy. I don't care about my own pain. How messed up is that?
