My Harmony

15. "Why do you do this to yourself Kian?"

Kian's P.O.V

Why the fuck did I just do that? Why did I do that? I'm such an idiot, she probably hates me and will never talk to me ever again, she'll probably move out and we aren't even together yet. Why am I such an idiot? Wait did I say 'yet'? Oh my god, I definitely am crazy about her.

Why'd you do this to her? I knew this could never happen but I drew the line and now we'll probably never be friends! She just took care of you even though she seen you kiss someone she hated, it seems as if you're leading her on by not kissing her the night before but then kissing someone else tonight and then being an ass and kissing her just a few minutes ago!

"Dude, are you okay?" A sleepy Jc asked me, making me snap out of my self argument. I realised I was still in the bathroom and he had just made his way downstairs.

"I kissed Franny" I blurted out as Jc's eyes widened, I couldn't help but bury my face in my hands hiding my embarrassed expression. I started to walk to the couch so we didn't have this conversation in a little bathroom.

"What the hell dude?" He said to me, making me regret telling the curly headed boy.

"I feel bad, I feel really bad for putting her on the spot like that" I said meaning what I just said, he could tell I did when he sent a look of guilt my way.

"I mean I'm happy for you but didn't you just kiss Corrina a few hours ago?" He asked while he followed me to the couch, we sat down and I couldn't bring myself to say anything till Jc nudged me slightly.

"To make things clear she kissed me first. Okay, we were having an argument about how much I liked her and she was telling me that we couldn't be together" I took in a deep breath, trying to actually remember what just happened "Then I got angry because she said we couldn't be together then she said I didn't deserve her and that triggered me, you know. I had to kiss her dude, I know it was wrong but I had to" I finished, I looked over to the tired boy and noticed how tired he actually was. The party must have drained his energy.

"I have no idea what to say maybe it's my tired brain or the fact that you already know you shouldn't have done it and pretty much gave yourself a telling off" He said while his eyes were drooping, he was literately about to fall asleep right now.

"Jc, what do I do?" I asked while I pushed his shoulder making him wake up a bit, he rubbed his eyes then let out a little yawn.

"I think you should apologise then talk to her about it or even give her some space, I don't know dude I'm not a girl" He said as he got up and headed back up the stairs. Why did he come downstairs for? I shook my head because he was right, I had to talk to her. I grabbed my phone and sent a text to Franny, along with my millions of texts I sent beforehand.

To Fran: I'm sorry, can we talk about this please?

I let out a sigh as I dropped my phone on the couch, what a night it's been. I kissed two girls and ended up having a fight because I kissed a girl I don't even like and another with the same person but because we seen a guy I should have-

The sound of my phone going off pulled me out of my train of thought, I need to stop thinking so much.

From Fran: Not tonight, goodnight Kian x

She sent me an 'x', why does she give me mixed signals? One minute she's quiet because I ended up kissing someone that wasn't her then she says we can't be together, it's hard to read her. It doesn't help that she's gorgeous as well, I hated how good she looked tonight and how Corey had the pleasure of dancing with her, holding her hand and in general looking after her. I'll admit I was jealous but I'll only ever say it to myself or maybe to Fran.