Crush (Jonah Marais)

Chapter 4

The next day (Saturday)...

Yesterday, I made the worst decission of my life, I regreted it so much, I was so angry with myself. I couldn't even get myself to pick up the phone and talk to him, but i knew i needed to.

I looked at my phone the time was 10:47 am, i saw i had 9 new messages and 5 miss calls from Jonah, I took a deep breath and decided to open them,

J-Hey, why did you run away?
J-Answer me please
J-I'm worried please call
J-Sophie....
J-Where are you?
J-I miss you
J-I need you
J-Please
J-I love you.

My heart began to break again once I saw those messages,

S-I'm sorry, I don't think this will work...

Sophie why did you say that, are you stupid?

J-Why, what's wrong?

S-You don't know me, you don't know my past, kissing you was a mistake...

Even tho it wasn't

...just please stay away for a while.

J-But...

S-Jonah you have no idea how much I love you but I can't right know, if you knew my past, you would understand why but you don't.

J-Tell me, I'll learn all about you

S-I can't, I'm sorry, bye for now jonah...
Read at 10:54 am

That was tough, but I'm just not ready for a relationship right now...

When I was 16 (a year ago) I fell in love, like deeply in love, with this guy called, James, we loved each other dearly and we had been dating for a while. We spent every minute, of every hour, of everyday with each other. One late cold night in December, he was driving to come see me in a storm because I was home alone, but he never came, I waited all night until I fell asleep. I was woken by my mum telling me she had some bad news. My heart stopped when these words left her mouth, "Sophie, sweetheart, James died in a really bad car accident last night, I'm so sorry darling" she started to sob. I was so shocked I didn't know what to do, I blacked out then woke up the next day in hospital, I cried for days. Now I'm too scared to fall in love because I think I will never find anyone like James ever again and I'm also scared of being hurt again. Then I met the game changer, Jonah Marais.

I'm still not over James, when I kissed Jonah it felt so good but it also felt like I was betraying James. I know I really need to let go of him and move on and I see that Jonah is a great way to get over someone, but what if he just makes it worse? What if he breaks my heart? I don't want to get hurt again.

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Sorry this chapter was a bit short, I didn't know what to write but I'm also sorry I didn't upload for a few days I've been busy as I just started school again, but hoped you liked this chapter.