Loving My Alpha Mates

Even the sky screams

Days...weeks...months. I don't even care anymore. After telling my family about my past, they went ballistic. Every spare warrior went out to search for Anthony. I tried to tell them to leave it alone but they wouldn't listen so I just stopped trying. At least They promised they wouldn't bring up the search to me unless the find Anthony.

What they don't know is I know exactly where Anthony is. But Im never going to tell them where because he's too powerful and will destroy anything that would be thrown at him. I'm not going to let anyone die to avenge my honor or whatever.

As for Caleb and alex, I haven't seen or heard from them since I left the pack. They are torturing me! They've marked another female yet they don't even have the decency to reject me to my face! I ask my wolf to surface so I can see and she complies. I sigh and look around my old room. Just the way I left it. I walk to my bathroom and look at myself in the mirror.

My hair is greasy and matted in the back. I have dark circles under my eyes and my lips are chapped from not drinking any liquid. Ever since my episode, my wolf has left and I don't know when she will come back...I just don't know if life is really worth living anymore to be honest.

All of the things I've been through could anyone blame me for thinking that? I stare at my scarred arms and I lift my shirt to see my numerous scars all over my body. I'm disgusting. My fingers trace over my stretch marks and my eyes blur with brimming tears. The only marks on my body that I'm not disgusted by. They remind me of my little boy. My baby boy.

No. You can't cry. It's in the past and it needs to stay there.

I blink repeatedly and pull my shirt down. You don't need to cry about stuff you can change. I set my jaw and quickly leave the bathroom and walk over to the window where I usually watch Jasper play with the other pups. Today no one is outside because it's pouring down rain. Maybe I'll go out. Seems like a good day to go for a walk. I open up the window and instantly feel the droplets of water pelt my face. I cover my eyes and squirm out with much effort. Ugh I'm so out of shape... once I'm safely out of the house, I jump two stories down to the wet ground, stumbling because I'm on the weak side.

I walk into the woods, not caring that I'm shivering badly and my feet are numb. The sky rumbles and flashes with white light but I'd doesn't scare me, it comforts me.

Even the sky screams and cries at times.

"Wake up you slutty bitch!!" A deep voice spits.

My eyes wouldn't open no matter how hard I tried to open them. I suddenly start to feel pain throughout my abdomen and I let out a strangled scream. What's happening? What's going on? I feel my body start being shook and I hear yelling.

"We need a doctor! My pup might be in danger!!" The voice growls

What?! No no no! My baby! I try to open my eyes again but this time I feel myself start to fade into darkness. Crap! No please no!

As I'm about to fall unconscious I hear people yelling"too much blood....pup...hurry....dying" Then everything goes silent.

Even just recalling the memory, my heart skips a beat at he thought. I wince when I remember the pain...so much pain. I shake my head and realize I've come across the old creek I used to play in when I was little. Those are better memories... I look up at the sky, letting my tears flow and mix with the rain.

"Why did this happen to me? I lived through torture and just when I thought it was over and my life might be okay, it's ripped away again! I CANT KEEP DOING THIS!!" I scream into the night.