Dear Scarlett

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Dear Scarlett

Term three, semester two starts today.

I hate school. I'm smart and everything, but I hate it.

I think it's because I have no friends, other than you, but I couldn't exactly bring you to school with me, can I?

My teachers don't really pay attention to me and the other students think I'm weird, I think I'm weird too.

You've never been to school, so you don't know what it's like to stay in a place where you don't fit into any of the cliches or status quo. The whole school is based around the status quo and if you don't have a part in it, you never get a part in it.

That's why I eat by myself in the toilets everyday. Disgusting, I know, but it's better away than the prying eyes of the cafeteria.

I came home with lots of homework today. I find it easy though, homework never bothers me, I think I actually like it. It gives me something to think about other than my terrific life. I don't know if you understand.

I like homework, but you see, my parents don't. I know you're thinking, but surely they want me to get good grades? Nah, they don't care. They don't care about my grades or anything, they just want me to fit in and if that means to not care about school because nobody else did, then that's correct. They've tried getting me to fit in, buying me clothes, making me take dance lessons because all the other girls in my grade did. I guess they've given up when they realized that I would always be different to my society and now they don't care about anything anymore.

They don't ask me about my life, nor even have a meal with me.

They're so blindly in love about trends and society that they've disowned their own daughter because she did not fit in.

My parents don't love me, but I don't want to lose them yet. No child wants to lose their parents. I try to please them so often, but I don't know how. I was just born this way and it makes me hate how I've turned out.

I've given up too, knowing that nothing I ever do will make them even think about me as a daughter now. We avoid each other as much as we can, I'm like an outcast, in my own blood-bound family.

I still get angry and upset but it's been so long, I just deal with it by myself. 

I wonder what it's like in your world, Scarlett, maybe people will love me there.