Loving her has always been red 》Cheryl Blossom

a few weeks after Jasons death

You knew she was hurting and you were there for her like you always will be , but you knew that she was shutting you out and that hurt you too.

After Jasons death she slowly started distancing herself from you , at first you thought it would pass with time but with time it only seemed to get worse she distanced herself even more from you and you couldn't not say anything anymore. It hurt too much not to.

It hurt knowing she wouldn't let you be there for her , it hurt you even more that she was hurting and you could do nothing to easy her pain because she wouldn't let you .

"have i done something wrong? " you asked Cheryl who was standing up to leave your room while you were sitting on your bed. You knew you had to say something then because your cuddling, the greatest part of your days now felt empty like it was some kind of chore it didn't felt like home anymore.

She slowly looked in your eyes and and then out the window with almost a blank expression even though you could see the sadness her eyes held.
"you've been distant. .. and cold and baby I know that you're hurting and I didn't want to push you but you don't even look at me anymore and..." but before you could finish talking she cut you off as she spoke with a cold tone in her voice which was empty of any feeling "I wanna break up " and your whole world fell apart by that one sentence. Shock was written all over your face as you slowly started to get pale and with the little bit of your shaking voice you said "w-what? "

"I want to break up . I can't do this right now " and with just that she left your room and one tear fell on your cheek as she closed the door behind her, and after a few minutes of realizing what had happened not only your world but you also fell apart as you fell on your bed crying in agony at what just happened.
Cheryl was your everything and without her you were nothing, after hours of non stop crying and wondering what you did wrong you fell in a restless and full of nightmares , screaming and crying sleep wishing that you would wake up and all of this would be just a terrible nightmare even though it wasn't.

-After your break up you were a wreck to say the least. You went through all of the emotions from being in pain, to sadness, to anger and finally emptiness. Everyone could see how the break up had effected you and everyone tried to get you out of your bedroom but with no luck, you were an empty shell of the person you used to be and wanted nothing to do with the world because Cheryl was your world, your life and now that you didn't have her there was no world for you to be in and no life for you to live.

You just existed now in a dull and full of misery existence, where pain was the only remaining feeling.