Butterscotch (smut)

My brain hurts

Monday, September 11th

Hey Diary,
Ugh... sorry I've been gone for a day. But I'm here and safe heh. I can't get my mind wrapped around him though... I think I'm losing my mind. I think he may be the one for me. I'm not sure though... I'm still a little scared of telling him that I love him. But today.. today was different. He was blushing while talking to me and he was stuttering really bad today. He stutters but not like that this has never happened before. It worries me.. though still when he calls my name in a way it makes my legs tremble hard especially when I need to stand.. and today he called my name in the most steamy way that made me bite my lip so hard that I think I made it bleed! I don't think I can control myself when I'm around him anymore. It's like I'm being forced to be pushed into him but it confuses me! When I have so much confidence built up I go to him and then I boom! Loose my brain and freeze up leaving him in confusion! It makes me so mad that I want to just go into my brain and try to find why I'm having this problem and fix the screws that are out of there little homes... ugh my head hurts so much.. I don't know what I want now. I don't know to go for my education... or him... but once I figure out what I want it has a consequence to it. I could go for both but that would take to much work.. I mean working on my grades and trying to satisfy my teacher? That would be to much for me... For education it would be like the best thing for me. I could get my money and pay my taxes and bills for my home and get a career. But on the other hand. Mr. Ghostly it would be amazing.. snuggling and the cuddling while he babies me and calls me all these names that would make me squeal at him. The sex... the rough steamy, wet, hot, exhausting thrust aching sex... Ooooh... excuse my potty mouth but I'd let him make me his bitch in a prison cell! I'd let him plow me anytime and anywhere... every time I think of him my cunt gets soaking wet and I have to finger myself while thinking about that huge hunk of sexiness I can just imagine him thrusting his shaft inside of my virgin pussy! I'm thirsting for him now... I want him that's my final choice I want him I-I need him! I'm sorry Diary that I've never shown this side of me but miss Walker's been a naughty little whore for a while and she's finally came out needing sensation for her aching vagina... tataaa Diary~