''Do not let the shadows of your past darken the doorstep of your future. You can't reach for anything new if your hands are still full of yesterday's junk''
It's been a while since I have met a woman. It's been a while since I saw myself as happy as I am now, Its been a while since my lips have formed a curve. I know to myself that I am a happy man once again, right here, right now and SHE is the reason why. She is the only one that was never been afraid to talk and start a conversation with me after the divorce. Before, during my early years, I was so impulsive that I rushed everything even the marriage I had but I never and will never regret to have such wonderful kids as I have now. For a long time, I thought M would complete my whole being, that she will be the one I grow old with but I was wrong. Destiny, being the devious player proved that to me until I met her – Sarah. And once again, I believed in second chances of life and love. I thought that maybe the reason why me and M didn't worked out as planned is that because I was for somebody else that time. But just like the old times, I was again victimized of the shit called fate and history repeats itself.
''Kala ko di mo na ko susunduin Oh Francisco'' a woman, 29 of age where in the first look you will easily recognized her fashionable statement from her clothes up to her shoes and her sunglasses on.
''so be thankful Missy. You just have a lucky soul to have someone like me hahaha'' I said trying to make some humor here.
''Uh okay okay, Mister whatever you say tch. Anyway where are the others? I mean Pancho and Sherwin?'' and just as instant her arm were linked to my arm, if this is another random girl I will definitely feel annoyed but no, I am not, to this lady.
''On the car, waiting for you.''
''Let's go, I am so excited to meet them. Its been a while, I missed them so much'' amusement can be seen to her face.
''Sila lang na-miss mo?''
''Oh come on Bambs, don't be jealous, Ofcourse I missed you more too''
''Hahaha, well then, let's go, you owe me a lot of stories to share'' we started to walk while her baggage are on my right hand and her arms on my left.
''And you, too''
Meanwhile...............
As I opened the car on my SUV, I am right, two people are waiting for us to arrive though Pancho, my manager is still busy browsing his phone
''Aherm.. '' I am trying to get their attention and yes, I easily caught it. They diverted their attention on us and instantly, wide grin was on their faces
''BAMBS Finally andito na rin kayo, kanina pa inip na inip kami muntik na nga makatulog tong si Chico e'' my manager spoke while pointing to his brother, my road manager Chico that have his eyes directly on the road and start the engine of the car.
''Etong si Kuya makapagsalita akala mo hindi busy kaka twitter'' chico said
''Aherm. Panch, Aherm'' I spoke once again because I can sense an endless banter between these two person in my front. They fixed themselves and Pancho finally recognized the person beside me and said
''MARGARETTE!!!!!!!!!! The great Margarette Salvador.. Long time no see!!!!'' Pancho hugged her while Chico on the other hand just give a warm but a shy smile.
''Oh hello Kuya Panch, hello din po kuya Chico. Namiss ko rin kayo. Finally! Oo nga ang tagal na''
''Ah eh kami lang ba ang namiss mo Marj? Baka naman may iba pa dyan'' Chico said with a little sound of not so serious tone
'' Ofcourse namiss ko rin ang isang ito, Kayo ah marami na pala akong di alam'' she said while looking at me.
''Mahaba haba Marj. Mabuti pa kumain muna tayo, tomguts na ko at mala MMK pa ang kailangan mo malaman mas nakakagutom yon''
''Yes, sige po. Tara na'' Chico started the engine and drove away. The whole ride was indeed fun.
She is Marj. Margarette Alliyah Salvador. I met her through a common friend in the states few years ago. Let's just say we had some common things that caused us to became much closer with each other.
The girl who is not afraid to be with me, the girl who changed me. Who changed my perception in life after the painful things happened in the past. And yes, she is my best friend. The only girl I trust aside from M. The lady who took the risk to talk to me when the whole world is afraid to be near me. The woman who makes me laugh, and yes, she is indeed an important person in my present life regardless of how chaotic my past is.
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MARJ
Move on. The past is already in the past. You cannot change it, you cannot do something about it. Mga katagang madalas marinig ko sa mga tao. Move On, Kalimutan na ang nakaraan. Ang dali sabihin para sa iilan pero mayroon naman talagang ibang nahihirapan. May mga tao ang nabubuhay sa nakaraan yung tipong nasa kasalukuyan na sila pero yung buong atensyon, puso, isip nila ay nasa nakaraan. Still dwelling on the beautiful memories of the past. Siguro kasi minsan sila nakaramdam ng pambihira at tunay na kaligayahan sa nakaraan na hindi pa nila muling nakikita sa kasalukuyan o baka naman sobrang miss na miss lang nila yung mga tao o bagay ng nakaraan na nakakalimutan na nila yung mga kaharap nila ngayon. Mahirap mabuhay sa nakaraan sabi nila, oo naman kasi para kang tanga na humihiling ibalik ang panahon kung saan nangyayari pa ang mga gusto mong mangyari pero wala na e, tapos na. Iba na ngayon. We need to accept it and moveon. Yes, Acceptance, masakit, mahirap pero minsan yan ang susi ng lahat, Kailangan tanggapin ng tao na may mga bagay na hindi na maibabalik pa sa dati, na may mga bagay na kahit gustong gusto mo hindi mo na ulit makukuha pa, na kahit gusto mong ulitin wala ng replay tapos na. We need to accept the truth and learn to live with the present.
Ang pinaka kalaban nga daw ng tao ay ang tadhana, bawal maging tanga kasi kung tanga ka, kung mahina ka walang mangyayari sayo, the destiny will be as bad as you thought it to be. Kung matatakot ka, kung maduduwag ka maaaring mawala ang lahat ng pinapahalagahan mo sa isang iglap. Yes, fear is what makes human change but also, fear is what makes human be weak. Nagiging mahina tayo dahil sa takot. Takot humarap sa realidad, takot sumugal kaya pipiliin na lang natin na manatili sa comfort zone natin na ''pwede na siguro ito'', ''hanggang dito na lang ako'', ''ayoko ng lumaban pa'' kaya madalas nauuwi rin sa pagsisisi ang lahat. At kung minsan, kung kailan handa ka ng lumaban, wala na. Huli na. May iba ng nagwagi. At ikaw, talunan, lugmok sa lusak ng laro ng tadhana ay nabubuhay lamang sa mga walang katapusan what ifs at could have beens.
At ganitong ganito ang lalaking katabi ko ngayon, alam ko sa tinagal tagal namin magkakilala marahil marami na kong alam sakanya pero alam kong wala pa yon sa mga kailangan kong malaman. At ramdam ko, hanggang ngayon dala dala pa rin nya ang lahat. The past. His past.
I want to help him. I want to teach him how to let go of his past!
The only way for people to truly move on is when he/she will face the scars of the past and accept that things will not be the same as what it is used to be!
At magsisimula iyon sa......
Pagharap sa nakaraan.
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AN: What will be the part of someone like Margarette ''Marj'' Salvador in the story? Will she be the villain or not?
