{Discontinued}suicide note (maskyxsuicidalreader)

death

(A/n) (reader is twelve in this chapter)
Hi I'm Y/N and I'm gonna tell you how every thing began for me. You see I was five my dad would hit me till I passed out and then leave me there. My mom would just cover the bruises with makeup.

The only person who really cared about me was my 11 year old brother,(B/n), everytime I'd wake up he'd be right there next to me and he would hold me till I stopped crying. He always told me,"today is history, tomorrow is a mystery." And I treasured those words. Every time a bully hit me I would repeat those few words over and over in my head.

But when I was twelve my dad got drunk and crashed the car. My 18 year-old brother was crushed and died on impact. I went to his funeral and it was a closed casket.

When my dad went up to the casket I heard him whisper, "You deserved it (b/n). You got in my way of killing your sister every time."

                    ~time skip~

It was my turn to go up to the casket and say my goodbyes. I laid my head on the wooden lid and whispered, "today is history, tomorrow is a mystery. I'll miss you Scar. I'll see you every time I close my eyes. I'll hear your voice when dad beats me. I'll think of you when someone does a kind act. I'll always smell you in the roses on your grave. I'll never forget who you were, what you did for me, what you said, and all the times you saved my life. I vow to visit your grave once a month and change the flowers out. I'll never forgive him for what he did to you I just wish I could unsee what I saw that day. I'll never forget you brother. I hope you can hear me. Protect me in this pain filled world."

I closed my eyes and saw his happy face. I felt a tear slide down my face and I opened my eyes and sat down next to the casket. Pulling my legs up to my chest and burying my face in my knees and let out a choked sob.
         ~timeskip~ one month
(b/n) has been dead for one month and the beatings have went from punching me to cutting my arms and tying me down to a table and burning me with a lit cigarette. My arms are covered in cuts and my legs are covered in burns. I get up and get dressed in a black t-shirt, torn jeans, and my black combat boots. I only wear clothes Scar bought me my dad don't but me cloths and my mom buys me slutty clothes that I'm sure she got from a sex shop. 

I hear dad slam the front door. Leave (Y/N). the little voice in my head screamed. Every time my dad got home I'd jump out the window not thinking of the consequences when I got back. I jumped out the window and rolled, jumped up and ran across the back yard jumping the fence into the woods. I then run till I get to the center of the forest I climb a tree just in case he followed me like he did yesterday. I heard someone running the way I came and I saw my dad stop in the center of the clearing. "Y/N GET YOUR ASS OVER HERE RIGHT NOW YOU LITTLE SLUT!" He yelled. He noticed a piece of paper with a horrible drawing on it. "Leave me alone. NO I'LL NEVER LEAVE YOU ALONE Y/N!" He yelled to no-one. He took the page off the tree and ripped it up. Then out of no where a boy with a hoodie that was brown with a blue hood. He stood behind my dad and grabbed a wooden handle and pulled a hatchet out of his belt loop and tapped on his shoulder and raised the hatchet burying it in my dad's skull. I cheered a little too loud the boy turns around and I see a mouth guard and orange steam-punk goggles. He looks me in the eyes and runs at the tree jumps and lands on my branch making me fall off I scream and I land in two strong arms. I look up and saw my brother. I hug him and he tenses up. "(b/n) I missed you soo much I can't believe you are alive!" I sob into his chest. "Who the hell is (b/n)?"

I blink my eyes rapidly and look at the male holding me. He had a brown jacket and a white mask with black eyes and mouth.

I jump out of his arms and land on my ass. "Wh-who are y-you?" I asked. "I'm Masky. And I suggest you run and forget about all of this or you could  die." He said. I run out of the forest and to the graveyard at the edge of the forest. I walk to the base of a huge oak tree with a tall tomb stone. The soil in front of the stone has been put down recently  the stone read

   " 'Scar L/N'
         May 12 1999- May 11 2017
   Left behind: mom M/N, dad 
D/N, and his beloved sister Y/N
    His last words where to. 
    his sister, 'I love you' "

I sat down on the churned up dirt and cried till my eyes were dried out. I couldn't breathe. I felt myself pass out on my brothers grave. When I wake up it's morning. I look around and see a boy with brown hair with his head bowed sitting in front of a stone. I watch him shudder and I hear him sob. I walk up to him and read the stone

     "Jay Merrick
     May 17 1988-June 20 2014
      Died while shooting  a student film"

"Jay I miss you man. I'll do anything to save you if only I was there. I could of killed him."

Ok well here chapter one is up comment how you liked it.

edit- i did some light editing because i was bored tell me if there are still any spelling mistakes please 

have a good day/night

-axel

edited: 7/29/2021