Spencer
"Baby...I'm sorry...please call me back...I can't sleep without you...I love you..." She cried on the voice mail
She loves me too...
She's probably just saying that...
I put my phone on the charger and turned over turning the light off.
"You going to sleep?"Derek asked walking into the room
" uh yea...I have school tomorrow"
Ugh Mondays
" We....we have school tomorrow...Leia called though...what's going on with you guys?"
"Ugh...every time I make her mad...she mentions her ex girlfriend...I've brushed it off before but it gets fucking annoying" i groaned "and I could just be like we're done...forever....but I don't want to...I really li- love her...I fucking love her dammit!" I groaned again covering my face
" Hey...talk to her...tell her you don't like it...you're not so good on expressing your feelings that I know of...but if you really love her...tell her how you feel"
"And call her...she's literally been calling you since I walked in" he said getting up
"Ok goodnight!" I yelled before he closed the door
I grabbed my phone answering it when she called again.
"Babyyy!!" She slurred
"Leia are you drunk...?!"
"Hey stop yelling...I'm sleeping"
"Babe...where are you?"
"Outside...but...did you know?"
"Huh?"
"I just got some bomb head..." She slurred giggling
"I'm sorry babe I really love you"
" babe?"
"Babyyyy"
"Spence!!"
I hung up squeezing my phone in my hand causing it to crack a lot. I threw at the wall crying.
Why does she do this to me?!
I got up pulling on some Sweatpants and a hoodie. I grabbed my broken phone and dropped it into the trash before walking out my room quietly.
" Spencer where are you going?" My brother asked following me to the door blocking my way
"Out"
"What happen...I heard you crying"
"NOTHING DEREK FUCKING MOVE!!" I groaned angry
"Don't talk to me like that...what fucking happened Spencer?" He asked again
"She got ate out by someone else...happy...you want me to scream it?...my girlfriend drunk cheated on me...get out of my way" I said pushing him and walking out slamming the door
I didn't even get far before I was sitting on the ground crying my eyes out.
This is too much...I can't deal...my anxiety can't handle it...
I started hyperventilating crying. I pulled on my hair sobbing.
" Oh hey babeeee" I heard a voice say making me look up seeing Leia
I stood up looking down at her disgusted.
"What's with the look?" She asked drinking a bottle of water
" Really?...forget it all Leia...we're done...don't ever talk to me again k...I'm done with this bullshit...we all have issues and problems in life...but...I don't even know what to do when we get in these arguments and fights...I'm fucking done...have a nice life" I said turning around walking back into the apartment.
Fuck...that hurt
I laid in the bed and silently cried into my pillow. I stared at the wall crying my eyes out.
"Spencer...you ok?"
I ignored him instead I stayed quiet.
"Goodnight" he said sighing
I looked down crying.
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I stayed up all night crying...Leia called Derek to talk to me during the night...so did Sammy...so Derek also didn't go to sleep because he was worried about me...I was heartbroken...but I was done...well I said I was...and I think I am...but you never know.
"Spencer...you need to get some sleep...everything will be ok...You guys will work it out"
"Derek...can you please" I begged
" Fine...actual goodnight...I love you"
"Love you too" I said quietly
