Going Nowhere

Jake is Russ

First day on set. I walked from the parking to the door labeled SET 23. I inhaled knowing that everything was about to change. I opened the door and took my first step in running straight into another body.
"Oh, hey sorry. Didn't see you. Just going on a coffee run. You want anything?" The scruffy male voice asked me.
I couldn't speak. The man in front of me couldn't be who I thought he was.
"You're Millie right?" He asked.
I nodded. "I'm good," He cocked his head. "on the coffee. I don't need any. Thank you.. though."
"Okay well I'll see you in a few." He said. I nodded again and he was gone.
I stood there for a few moments as the room became visible. Everyone was busy setting up lights or on the phone or arguing or stuffing their faces with snacks. After I was sure he had drove away I slipped back outside.
"Jeanie?" I said on the phone.
"Millie." She answered back.
"You'll never guess who I just ran into."
"Who?!"
"Nick.... Miller!"
"Nick Miller?!"
"Jake Johnson Nick Miller!"
"No you did NOT!!"
"Yes! And when I say I ran into him I mean I literally ran into him like our bodies have physically touched each other! I just found his LINT ON MY SHIRT JEANIE!"
"Holy JESUS!"
"I KNOW but i gotta go they're expecting me on set now bye love you!"
I hung up the phone, my hands trembling.
I walked back on set and found one of the producers that was at the audition.
"Hey!" I said. She looked at me and perked up from her previous rbf.
"Millie Andrews! The star in the flesh!" She said.
"Yeah that's me." I said nervous laughing. "Um, so I was just wondering what role Jake would be playing?" I asked her my voice cracking on the last syllable.
"Oh yes Jake. He'll be playing Russ. Now you just make yourself useful and or busy and we'll find you when we start filming sweetheart." She said walking over to a man fixing a boom stick and proceeding to yell at him.
Jake is Russ. I am Lillian. Lilly and Russ are married. I am married to Jake.
Okay, this is fine. This won't affect my acting at all, whatsoever. I will not be distracted by the man I have crushed on for the last 5 years and had multiple celebrity dreams about. I will not get nervous when Jake Johnson holds my hand or calls me honey or hugs me or kisses me because it won't be Jake it will be Russ and I won't be someone who's dreamed about those exact situations millions of times, I will be Lilly. And I will be professional about the whole thing.
I sat on one of the half-walls in the back if the room for about 20 min convincing myself that breathing was necessary and it's physically impossible for my heart to beat so fast it bursts.
"Hey, I know you said you're good but they gave me an extra latte, do you want it?" He was back.
"Um, yes!" I said way too loud.
"Okay!" He said laughing. He handed it to me and sat down next to me. I froze. I kept looking forward at the living room in front of me as he set down his coffee.
"So Millie, I'm Jake by the way. I'm gonna be playing Russ." He said.
I knew he was looking at me but I just sat there staring forward, my back way too straight.
"Yep." I said.
"Um, so where are you from?" He asked me. His voice was velvet. Like a shaggy velvet on a vintage couch but velvet.
"Los Angeles." I said. Still not moving.
"Millie" He said. I wanted him to say my name 300 hundred times.
"Millie?" He said again. This time I had no choice but to look at him.
"hm?" I said taking in his scruff and that crooked nose carved by drunk gods and his eyes that could melt any and every human being.
"Did I.. do anything to offend you?" He asked.
I could feel my face turn to horror.
"No! No! No no no no no. Of course not! It's just you're Jake and you're Russ and I'm Lillian and we're married but you're Jake and you're so pretty and I love Nick Miller and you're Nick Miller and I'm Lillian and I think that you are so amazing and I don't wanna be that girl but I seriously have had a literal dream where I was your wife and here I am, Lilly, your wife." I said never breaking contact but wanting to kill myself with every word I spoke. But he kept eye contact too. And his smile grew bigger with every word.
"Millie it's okay. I'm just some dude okay? We are equals. Coworkers, if you will."
"Oh I will" I said. Cringing literally as I said it. But he just laughed.
"All actors on set! Filming Scene 3 part 1 in 2 minutes!" I heard a lady yell. I got up and followed Jake to set.
Here we go.