Loving Him

Chapter 18 New Feelings

PLEASE EVERYONE GO BACK AND READ CHAPTER 17 AGAIN, I MADE SOME CHANGES TO IT THAT WILL BE IMPORTANT FOR THIS CHAPTER~~~

Yein POV

Taehyung drags me to his car and we both get in. I urgently put on my seat belt and so does he, "Drive!" I yell.
I can't believe this is happening, what did Taehyung mean by accident... it must be bad, I mean he's in the hospital. Oh please Jungkook be okay.
Whithout knowing I start to cry.
"Yein, he'll be alright as long as you're here, please don't cry we are almost there." Taehyung tries to comfort me.
"I'm... sorry," I choke out, "I'm just worried... I guess I should calm down if you say he will be alright."
"I promise, he'll be okay."
The rest of the drive there is silent other than the sound of me trying to suppress my sobs. I can tell Taehyung is worried for me, probably just as much as he is for Jungkook, I mean I do sound like I am about to hyperventilate. A few minutes pass and we arrive, I unbuckle my seat belt and open the door and get out as fast as I can.
"Yein, be careful not to trip!" Taehyung yells.
"I won't!" I answer back.
I wipe my eyes as I jog towards the hospital, we had to park further away since there were a lot of people. I get to the door but I hesitate to walk towards it, eventually I step forward and the doors slide open. I take a moment to look back for Taehyung and he's walking this way and gives me a gesture to go on in. So I walk into the lobby, I start turning in each direction expecting to see Jungkook sitting on some bench with his phone out.
"Are you looking for someone?" A lady calls out from the front desk.
I walk towards where she is and I look down and scan her papers.
"I'm looking for a Jeon Jungkook." My voice shakes as I say his name and I take a deep swallow afterwards.
"Give me one second to look him up." She nods.
I look at her name tag, 'Sarah,' I assume she is from America, she definitely looks like a foreigner but she is pretty she seems about my age and her Korean is very fluent. I tap my finger nervously on the desk while she types on the keyboard.
*click* *click* *click*
"Ah, found him. He's on the 3rd floor in room 319"
"Thank you." I say hastily.

"Yein!" Taehyung calls to me. I spin around and watch him as he approaches me,
"Yeah?"
"I'll be up there in a moment. I have to look for someone." He replies while glancing the lobby.
"Okay." I say.

I head to the elevator and press the up button, *ding, ding, bing!* the doors slide open and I step in. There are a few other people in the elevator so I stay close to the doors and press button three. I look at the top of the elevator and glance into the mirror to see how puffy my eyes were, but instead my eyes shift to the back left corner of the elevator. I scan the girl through the mirror making sure no one sees me.
She's wearing a face mask, a thick black jacket, a foreign black tee shirt top with white lettering, and black sweat pants and boots. I find her attire odd because it is no where near cold. As the elevator makes it to the second floor, *ding,* no one gets off but the doors open. So I press the close door button, as soon as the doors close she shifts her weight to her left side and I can clearly see what she's holding. I've seen it before, but I don't know where, it's a white cloth.
I begin to feel a little uncomfortable, I scan my mind for the memory of where I've seen that thing before. I'm sure it's just a handkerchief and I'm just over imagining things. Then I see the girl shift, she drops the cloth and wipes her eyes with the opposite hand. She's crying. The other people in the elevator glance at her strangely, I feel bad for her, you never know what she was going through. Wait is that... *ding* oh, were at the third floor.

I get off and begin searching for room 319, I hear the people in the elevator begin muttering once I got off. Odd. I walk the hall and come across Jungkook's room. I take a deep breath, and then open the door.

Halla POV

     I'm in the elevator with a couple of guys, they are going to assist me with getting Yein away, honestly the only thing I have against her is that she is stealing the guy I love away from me. I have the anesthesia cloth Kai fixed up once I got the supplies. The plan is to hold her still then put her to sleep then one of these guys will take her away on his back to make it look like she fell asleep and he's taking her 'home.'

     Yein entered the elevator, the second floor button is pressed I'll have to wait until it opens and closes, then I'll do it.
     She walks in and I wait anxiously in the back, the men waiting for me to give the order. My hands begin to shake, I don't think I can do it, but I have to, I have to. My hands were shaking so much that the cloth fell out of my hand and onto the floor, followed by a tear. I quickly grab the cloth and wipe my eyes with my other hand trying to keep my composure, *ding,* we're at the 3rd floor already? I've missed it. She walks off the elevator and I rush out in the opposite direction leaving the men there.

Why am I crying? Aish, I need to pull myself together what's with me? I look for some place to sit and collect myself. I find a bench and sit there sniffing, I pull out my phone and call Kai.

Halla?
Oppa, how, I messed up.
What happened
Nothing! Nothing happened, I didn't do anything!

Yah, you need to calm down.
I'm so disappointed, I really love him oppa~
*sigh* Halla, dont your parents already want you two to marry?
But I want him to truly love me as I do him, am I that terrible?
No Halla, your not terrible, your awful.
Yah! I thought you were going to make me feel better!?
*laughs* I'm just joking!
It's not a joke to me, I was already crying *sniff*
Whatever, just calm down and solve your problems, because Yein isn't going to be mine anymore.
Do you like your girlfriend that much?
We've known each other for a while, and then she just asked me out and I have admired her since.
I wish I could have a love story like you oppa.
I know
Yah, your no help I'm hanging up.
Annyeo-
*beep*

I put the phone down beside me and buried my face in my hands. How am I going to fix this? Kai is being really mean anyways, him and his girlfriend will be getting along so well that he'll forget about me.

All of a sudden Taehyung comes out of the elevator and walks towards me. "Where have you been? I've been looking all over for you."

I take my hands away from my face and cross them against my chest. I gain my composure and say "You clearly didn't look hard enough," I lean back on the wall, "I've practically been here the whole time." Taehyung sits on the bench beside me and gets close, "I'm sorry, okay?" He says then leans back against the wall.

I relax now that he wasn't as close, I unfold my arms and mess with my nails. Taehyung grabs my hand and doesn't look at me, 'I need a friend right now, can we stay like this for a little?" I nod and then sit still with my back firmly pressed against the wall. "Are you uncomfortable by me holding your hand?" He says and leans forward still holding it. I look down making sure not to meet his gaze. He smirks then lets go of it and gets up and starts to walk off.

I look around nervously, what should I do!? Why can't I do anything right!? I begin crying again, I press my face back into my hands and try to be quiet. I hear him begin to come back my way then stop. He's probably looking down on me and feeling sorry for me like everybody else. He squats down and grabs my forearms gently, "Halla, I won't leave if you don't want me to." He pulls my arms away from my face and looks me in the eyes, a tear strolls down my face. He pulls me into a hug and I bury my face in his neck. "Why will nothing go right for me?" I plead.

"What do you mean?" He gets me to where he can see me, I hesitate but tell him "Because, I could have saved him, I was right there when that car hit him! I should've yelled at him, I should've been there instead of him, it's not like anyone loves me anyways." I begin to cry once more. Taehyung gets up and sits beside me and leans me into him.

'Taehyung, do I like you?'