Psycho

Killers heart

The mind of a killer is the same as anyone's mind. You can't scan a psychos brain, point at a black hole and say "yes that's where the evil lies," instead you look at it and think, this fuckers normal.

So what drives the sane mind to act like I did, what turned this sweet little girl into a psychotic bitch. It weren't like the movies where someone takes a blow to the head and wakes up a killer, no I was lead into something much more sick than that, I fell in love.

I fell In love with who I thought would be a sweet and loving boy who would never hurt me but instead he used me and tortured me, the worst thing was that I enjoyed it.... I guess you could say he made me choose, lose him or my mind, and I gave up my fucking mind to stay with him.

I met him in biology class, his name was Jason, he was always so good at helping me dissect things. Then we started to hang out after school and he'd tell me about the farm he lived on and how he preferred animals over humans, he'd say "animals are easy, they see man holding food then they obey the man, but a human would see an animal and kill it to make food, because every human is that fucking selfish"

Jason hated people but always told me how much he liked me. I guess that was his way of making me feel special.

After some time we got closer and closer until he invited me to his house for popcorn and films. We watched a few films and ate shitloads of popcorn. Once we ran out I went to the kitchen to get some more and he came up behind me to hug me, his arms wrapped round me and held me tightly, his hands held my sides. I turned to face him but before I could say anything he kissed me and lifted me to the counter.

I don't know what the fuck I was thinking but we were in the kitchen making out one minute and then the next moment... I was naked in his bed with him on top of me. I wanted so desperately to love him that I let him use me like that, not just once, many times. Over time our "connection" grew until he had me under his spell, until he controlled my mind and body.

I felt like a queen but that was only a fantasy, in reality I was a slave to the psycho I called love.