You Could Save Me (Phan)

Chapter 4

(Dan's POV)

One night, I was home alone. Phil had gone out with Josh. I had met Josh before. He seemed okay but there was something about him I didn't trust. Maybe it was the glint in his eye or the way he looked at Phil but I just couldn't bring myself to like him. (It also could have been jealousy but I forbid myself to think about that.)

Phil returned at one in the morning looking lost and hurt and lonely. He was also falling around a bit so I could tell he was drunk.

"Phil?" I said carefully.

"Get away, don't come near me!" he yelled.

I jumped back, shocked. Phil doesn't shout. But this wasn't my usual sweet, innocent, Phil.

"Phil it's me Dan, I won't hurt you" I pleaded.

"He said the same, he said he'd love me forever, but......." And at that he slowly sank to his knees and broke down.

(Phil's POV)

I was sobbing my heart out. I don't know why but tonight, it was so much worse, I couldn't take it anymore. I felt a cautious hand on my back. I flinched away at first but then realized there was no point as even if Dan was to attack me, he'd be stronger and win the fight. When he realized I was okay with it, gathered me into his arms and stroked my hair gently, whispering comforting words while I sobbed into his t-shirt.

"Dan" I whimpered.

"Yeah?" He answered softly.

"Your t-shirt" I mumbled.

He laughed gently. I was confused.

"What?" I asked.

"Only you would worry about something as stupid as my t-shirt while you're clearly not okay at all" he said still giggling slightly.

No I'm really not okay at all. I was expecting questions soon but I really wasn't ready to answer them. When I had calmed down I looked up at Dan. He was looking straight back down at me. There was no denying he was beautiful.

"How about we get you off to bed?" he said.

I was surprised. He didn't start firing questions at me like I expected him to. But did I really expect Dan Howell to start firing questions at someone he could tell wasn't ready to answer them? No, not Dan, anyone else, yes, but not Dan. Behind all the sarcasm and irony, he was a sweet caring boy and really loved his friends. He took care of them and never let them down. He was pretty great.

"Don't think I'm letting you away without knowing about this, because I need to kick the ass of the person that hurt you like this" he said determinedly.

Yup, that's my Dan.