TRIGGER WARNING*** suicide
'I'm so sorry girls but I need to do this.
To leigh ( Perrie stop reading this it's not your turn) I love you so much, you're the best friend I could ever have. We were the iconic duo, my partner in crime. One thing I'm going to miss the most is your smile. Infectious and beautiful just like you. Whenever I felt down you were there to pick me up. You are so fabulous and though I will wish I was there for all the girls weddings I will miss yours the most. I know it will be just as beautiful and fashion forward as you. I wish I would be there to hear you and Jade and Perrie argue over color schemes and stupid table arrangements. Don't ever think for a second that you aren't anything but amazing and beautiful. I love you so much leighly xx
Jade, my baby, even though you're only a year younger than me all I wanted to do was protect you from the harsh things the world had in store. It's silly because you're an adult and went through so much before I ever met you. You're so beautiful jadey and so so strong. Don't forget this. You have an uncanny ability to make others feel so comfortable and happy, but don't forget to make yourself happy too. (I know that sounds ironic coming from me). You're so intelligent, every day I was baffled by what came out of your mouth (in a good way) and seeing your mind work in ways nobody else's does. The thing I will miss the most is not seeing you change the world, beyond little mix, I know you will, with that big brain of yours. And I'm absolutely gutted that I won't be there to see your cheeky smile when you've done it. But do it anyway. Don't mourn forever. Move on as harsh as that sounds and live your wonderful life. Never stop dancing Poopey xx
Finally Perrie it is your turn, I know you've been waiting since Leigh's part. I love you Perrie, your blue eyes, beautiful features and amazing personality. You light up every room you walk into. When you smile I can't help but smile back. You want to do so much good in the world and you have to trust that you can do it. People love and believe in you, including me. I want you to continue to help people. You're crazy and adorable and I wish I would be there to see what you grow up to be (even though you're 24 already goD). I wish I was brave enough to tell you I love you in person. But I'm not, and I truly want you to be happy with the lucky guy who manages to get you to settle down. I love you Perrie
Don't blame yourselves. I know you'll want to. You'll wrack your brains trying to figure out if you could have done anything to help me and you couldn't have. I served my purpose in life, I met you three, I like to think I helped make you guys happy and I made music and brought joy to so many people. And for that I am forever grateful. This is not the end for you three. Don't even dare consider not making music ever again. I recorded part of a song secretly, and when I'm gone I want you guys to finish it. There are lyrics in the desk in my room. Put it on the next album, for me. I love you guys more than words can describe. Xxooxx Jes
Stay weird
Jesy signed the letter and sank into the bath, she ripped through her skin with the blade of her razor, cutting into her wrists before hearing the front door open. She slipped into unconsciousness, the bath water still running.
"JES WE'RE HOMEEEEE" Leigh called as she walked in. A confused expression fell across her face when Jesy did not come out and greet them or at the least respond. She looked at Jade and Perrie in confusion before setting her stuff down.
The girls joked that Jesy was probably asleep, they had rehearsal earlier and the choreographer had put Jesy front and center for the dance break.
"Jesy I know you can do this, you and I both know you're amazing at dancing."
"Thanks Claude. Let's run it again."
