Secret

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The word I say
Most of it is a lie
The only thing I whant to do right now is to die

I just fuck up everything...
I shouldn't exist

If I tell you that I love you you wold probably hate me.

Amanda when/if you read this I'm sorry for everything that I've done to you but there is a reason. There is a reason that I make weird jokes there is a reason to it all

I have an secret but if I tell you...

You see a  smile on my lips
You see me laughing every day.
Yet you don't know about my secret

~wow deep Shit sorry~

What had happened today?

Well I have been caught cheating during Spanish... Yay

My glasses broke it just pof 

I told my mum that next time I get a haircut I'm going to cut it short. Later she asked irl how short I was just like "do you know how Amanda's hair is"
"uuuh.no" being confused af. *go's on to her ig acc and takes up the pictures of her when it had just been cut* "are you going to have it that short?" 
me --> -_-  (i just released that she has already said ok to me cutting it so now she can't say no)

What more....*thinking in k-pop*
There is going to be a new k-pop boy band called "stray kids" and they haven't debuted yet but they have released a song and Amanda likes it I'm... Jdkdkfhdjdjjd at least one of my friends has good taste in music. The video is up there 👆
This is what I know about them so far:
They are in the years between 97-01 so oldest 20 (international) 21 (Korea) and julfest is 15-16 (international) 16-17 (Korea)  the makne Jeongin or Felix is ma bias.
They are 9 members
I don't know if this is true but their debut date is 17 October 11 pm kst (Korean standard time)
They are under the same label as got7 which is jyp
This is going to be the first time I'm with a group from start and I hope to finish

Well that's like it for this time
Oh there is one more thing
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(Amanda plez don't talk about it in shool or private because what ever happens you'll probably not find out, or if you do you will hate me)
















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Bye

~love septicswed

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