14/3- 2018

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I don't wanna go to school tomorrow

I didn't wanna go to school today

I didn't wanna go to school yesterday

I don't wanna wake up tomorrow and find out that I'm still alive

I don't wanna selfharm but the thought of it keeps coming back

I don't wanna die but I don't wanna be alive

I always no matter how much I laugh, no matter how short the school day is, no matter if i'm having a good time with my bae. No matter what I just wanna cry all the time

I wish I could wake up tomorrow and relize that the last  two and a half years was all just a dream, I never selfharmed, I never hated myself, I never wanted to die, Jonghyun never died and I never hurt you, Amanda

That's one of the things I regret the most, that I ever hurt you









Someone’s breath. That heavy breath
How can I see through that?
Though I can’t understand your breath
It’s alright I’ll hold you
You really did a good job
Lee Hi- breathe
Written by Jonghyun

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