Twenty-One {Book 2 of Blaze} [Jatrific]

Chapter 3 - Contemplation

Joey's Pov

I contemplate.

And contemplate.

It's really great that Cat wants to reconnect with me after all that's happened, but I've been thinking about it for a while and I think it's best if we don't see each other.

I just can't.

I can easily picture what would happen if Cat and I started talking again.

We'd be really happy to see each other again, we'd reminisce about our relationship and how great things were before the whole pregnancy situation, and then, we'd probably end up making out.

That just can't happen.

I really hurt Cat when I got Dani pregnant and I don't want to do that ever again. Cat deserves a great guy who can be loyal to her.

I know I still have feelings for Dani which is why I don't want to be with Cat again.

I don't want to lead her on.

It's weird, I know how I feel about Dani, but I'm not exactly sure how I feel about Cat. There are times when I feel like I'm in love with her, and there are also times when I think I'm only using her for sex.

That was the problem last time we dated. I thought I was in love with her, but it turned out that I was actually in love with her body.

But, I've matured. And so have my feelings.

The distance between Cat and I has made me want to see her and once again, part of me thinks its because I really do like her that way.

The other part says I'm sex deprived.

I call Cat, awaiting her answer.

One ring, two rings, three rings........

"Joey! Hi!" hearing her voice, I smile.

"Um, Hey Cat. You texted me?"

"Yeah, about that. Joey, did you get my gift?"

"Yeah I did, sorry for not calling. I've been pretty busy. Thank you so much for the champagne, you know me so well, Cat." I say, cursing myself for almost forgetting to thank her.

"I bet. Having a kid and everything." she sighs.

There is a thick, awkward silence between the two of us.

"Wanna come over?" I blurt out, mentally kicking myself for,

1. Making it sound like I'm inviting her over to sleep with me

2. Forgetting that she's across the fucking country.

And she of course, laughs at this.

"Well, considering that I'm on the other side of the country, I don't think I can come over today. But, I'd really love to see you again, Dani too."

"Why don't you fly out? I'll buy your ticket."

"Joey, that's really nice of you but I can pay for my own plane ticket."

"Are you positive? They're really expensive."

"Yeah. I'll try to get a ticket for next week and then I can start packing!" she says, obviously spewing rainbows.

"I'll let you know the details by tomorrow" Cat continues.

"Alright." I chuckle. I love hearing that voice of hers. So, so much.

"Okay, later Joey."

"Bye."

A/N hey guys! sorry it's taken me so long to update! honestly, i've been stalling this whole time...........yeah I'm sorry about that.

-maya

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