In Memory of Cassie

Midnight kisses and morning cuddles

I don't know what time it is but for all I know it's midnight and I can't sleep again so I went to the kitchen to drink some milk but found some beer instead and popped it open. Alcohol seemed to be the best pain killer and sleeping medicine for me nowadays.

I chugged it down and welcomed the bitter taste as it slowly went down my throat and heat spread throughout my stomach making the world ten times lighter and my emotions a million times happier.

It still felt weird to know that in my entire life I've been used to thinking that they were my real parents but suddenly a small spark had ignited a flame and consumed everything leaving traces of evidences of the truth they hid underneath.

It hurts to know that your loved ones had been lying to your face the entire time and when you find out it was already too late.

It also hurts to know that all the wrong things you've done leaves a permanent mark like a wrinkle on a paper, no matter how much you straighten it it will never be the same ever again and you know you can't take it back because the wrinkles will always remind you of the mistakes you've done and you can never go back to that time again.

I take a break from my thoughts, hoping for some distraction as I walk closer  to the living room and flipped through the channels and settled in to watch The Vampire Diaries.

Ian Somerhalder caught my eye. I mean who couldn't look away from that hot piece of meat? Even I couldn't, and since no one else was there I decided to enjoy it alone.

I wish I was a vampire. I mean just think about it? you can turn off your humanity switch and drink all the alcohol you want and-

"Hmm.. I didn't know you were into that" The low voice startled me from my thoughts and I almost choked on my beer when I whirled around and found Zeke standing at the back of the sofa. The show suddenly showed a commercial so  I tilted my head up so I can see him. 

"What are you doing here?" I raised an eyebrow at him questioningly. I was really hoping for some alone time with my Damon Salvatore but I guess I could use some company. He lifted my legs and placed them on his lap so he can sit beside me and plopped his legs on the coffee table.

"I should be the one asking that. Don't you have school tomorrow?" He asked

"Don't you have college tomorrow?" I countered.

He smirked. "My class starts later in the afternoon"  The commercial finally stopped and I continued watching when he grabbed my beer.

"Hey" I tried reaching for it but he drank from it.

"No alcohol for you missy, you're still underage" I rolled my eyes at him.

"Uhuh look who's talking" I attempt to take back my beer from him but he smirks and holds it up as I try reaching for it, causing me to lean closer to his face. 

Suddenly I was captivated by his eyes. They weren't just regular brown they had flecks of gold around them and I can see his pupils dilate, his minty breath fanning my face and I can see his adams apple bob up and down.

Our lips were only centimeters apart and I couldn't find myself to move as his lips began moving closer to mine so out of panic I leaned to the side and reached for my beer. 

"Ah Ha!" I exclaim as I held the beer up his face and take a long sip from it. 

I hope he wasn't trying to kiss me I wouldn't know what to do if he did.

Then  I began laughing, even without any light aside from the television I can see Zeke's cheeks taint with red. 

"You should see your face you look like a girl wanting to be kissed"  I say as I began clutching my stomach and laughed even louder hoping that anyone asleep wouldn't wake up even though inside I'm still feeling nervous so I began sipping more alcohol in hopes of calming it down then Zeke began laughing with me and I start to feel the awkwardness to die out betweeen us.