Linda's Story

My new everyday

I'm in a strange land, aren't I? There are waterfalls, it's crystal clear. I have never seen so much green in one place. I watch the beautiful wild horses' room free. The sun is so big and round as if I can just paint it perfectly. Walking around, feeling the grass brush my legs, it goes all the way up to my knees. The smell is so pure and wonderful. I feel as if no one can touch me, hurt me, hear me. "I'm free" I whisper to myself. Smiling to myself, I run. I feel the wind hit my face, taking deep breaths. My long hair pushed back, I feel weightless. It's amazing.  I keep on running til my legs started to ache. I sit down and watch the sunset. "So this is what heaven is like?"  Everything turns black. 

I gasp, I just woke up. I sat up so fast.  That was probably the best dream I had in months. Actually, it's the only dream I had that I can remember. These past months, all I have seen is what happens at school every day.  Oh if only I can go back to it, go back to the feeling of being free. Of being happy, just being me. Mom was gonna yell at me if I didn't get out of bed, so I went into the routine. Got up, got dress, did my hair, brush my teeth, don't forget the bag I tell myself. And off to the bus, I go. I sat all the way in the back. Hearing the snickers on my way there. I sit by myself, no one to talk to. Putting on my earbuds and just listen to whatever's on the radio. I do this every day, ever since it started. 

Walking in the school was like walking on the red carpet. You have everyone's attention. But instead of amazement, you get laughed from everyone. It's humiliating, the halls become so quiet while all eyes are on me. I pull my hoodie tighter, holding onto the strings. I play my music louder and just walk to my locker. Once I open it, notes come out. I hear the laughs, I go down and pick it up. 

It's like all the other ones I have ever gotten.

 "no one likes you"

"you're not pretty"

"Kill yourself"

"ugly bitch" 

I can feel the tears falling down my face. Not today Linda. I tell myself, I get up and just kept on moving. I dread going to each class every day, it's a pain knowing that everyone is eyeing me. I just want to go home, lock myself in my room. I don't pay attention in class anymore, but I'm somehow passing. Granted it's not an A but at least I'm not failing. School's a blur for me, kind of an get in get out situation. My "friends" just stare at me when I walk by, whispering like all the others. Spilling the secret I trusted them with, embarrassing me more than I already am. It's one thing to hear rumors from you, it's another knowing it's from your "friends". My heart breaks every time I pass by my friends and Daniel. I have so much anger toward Daniel but every time I think about it, I cry instead. I can't understand how one night changed him and destroyed me. 

Finally, lunch rolls around. I just grab a sandwich and go outside. I walk up the hill till I can see the view. It's so beautiful It's my only safe place, my thinking place. I sit on the grass and take in the warm sun. I close my eyes, everyone is gone I see nothing I hear nothing. I'm nothing, and I love it. My eyes open again, I just stare at the view. I stay like that until my alarm goes off. 

Guess I should go into the shitty school. 

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