The real me

Chapter 1

Lee pov

I finish unpacking, I notice Shaun is just sitting on her bed listening to music, I sit on my bed and get on my bed. I look at my phone and see I got a message from Meechie.

Meechie. Is my ex..... not even an ex me and her were never together but yet our hearts were. We talked for over a year and I was so deep in love, when I say in love I mean that kind of love where just thinking of them being gone makes your heart hurts.

Once day I was dumb and just for fun took some Xanny and I thought no one would notice but I kept taking more and I ended up OD and at first I just wanted to do it for fun but once I got high I thought of all the things I have done wrong in the past and tried to kill myself, in those moments I didn't think of Meechie I didn't know where my mind was and while I was passed out my parents got into my phone and saw that I had been talking to Meechie and they hate the fact that I'm gay so they got mad and took my phone.

I woke up and I asked where my phones was and they explained how they took it and I just went off. They told me that they would make sure I never saw her again. My love was so deep I went off and I ended up in the phyic ward for a few weeks and in those weeks I didn't talk to meechie and once I got out she had kind of lost feelings. She said she still loved me but she didn't think things were gonna work out and she wishes thing were different but she said once I got off to college if we happened to bump into each other we could see what happens.

When she told me that it felt like she had ripped my heart out of my chest and broke it into millions of pieces, I went down and I couldn't show my hurt because if I did my parents would find out I was still in touch with her so I had no one to go to. I'm still dealing with it and it hurts but I think ill be ok as long as she is still my friend.

"hey I have been thinking of you. How are you?" I read the message and my heart flutters

"I'm good. I'm in college now. Sooo maybe we can meet and catch up?" i sit there in a trance thinking of how happy we could be together now. Meechie is a stud and she was the only stud I was with because no one else came close and I couldn't picture with another stud cause I would only think of her

I am snapped out my trance when I see Shaun getting undressed, yeah I feel for meechie but I'm also gay so when I see a girl getting naked Ima look. She looks at me and I look down.

"you see something you like ma?" she says with her low tone voice.

I was about to open my mouth when my phone goes off with a reply from meechie.

"I'm sorry lee but I have a girlfriend now, if we r to meet up I would have to bring her along, but it would be nice to catch up, just let me know❤"

I sit there and I feel like my eyes are holding back a river of tears but I fluff it off.

"hey I'm going out tonight with some of my friends, wanna tag along?" its like she could tell I need a drink.

" I would love to but I'm not 21" I say disappointed, she comes over and whispers in my ear, "I'm not either but I got you lil ma"

Her breath in my ear sends chills down my spine, I nod my head and get ready..... tonight I'm gonna need some drinks.......BIG TIME

Sorry this was so short but I had to let u guys get a feel for what is going on currently

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