Loving You

Chapter 7

The past week has been all candy and unicorns for me. I've been talking to Sam on the phone everyday for at least 2 hours. We never get tired of hearing each other's voices ramble on. But all of this makes me think of the love for Cameron fading away. Cam's been really distant lately, but ever since the beginning, he's never told me what he wants. I've been waiting for him to tell me he loves me, yet I hear nothing. While eating a BLT sandwich for lunch, I hear heavy footsteps coming down the stairs.

"Hey," Cam says his hair tussled like a girl was running her fingers through them. I nod back at him wondering if I remember a girl giggling last night. That's right, I did. It didn't sound like Sierra's laugh either because her laugh sounds more like a dying donkey. Was it only two weeks ago that Cam was teaching me how to play basketball and his warm breath creeping down my neck. His fingers laced into mine? That's it, I'm tired of all of the games.

Without thinking I said," Did you bring a girl home?" Cameron closed the fridge and looked at me wide-eyed. His lips pursed in embarrassment, and his cheeks reddened.

"No, why would you think that?" Cam said looking away. I shook my head in disappointment and got up. I looked at him for a second, and we both new what I was going to do. I sprinted upstairs to his room, and twisted the doorknob. I hear Cam running after me, but it was too late, I already saw her. She had shoulder- length, brown hair and bright green eyes. Small freckles dotted her cheekbones. All she was wearing was one of Cameron's big T-shirts that said Michigan State. She was looking at our pictures of me, Cam, and Sierra when we were little. She looked startled, and immediately put down the picture.

"Oh, uh, hi," she said trying to smile. I just stared at her disgustingly until Cameron apologized to her and closed the door. He was only inches in front of me.

"Why would you do that?" Cam asked his eyebrows scrunching toward the middle from anger.

I shrugged and really didn't know the reason why I had to embarrass him like that. I was just tired of him acting shady, and all of a sudden bring a random girl home. It was a damn good thing that my mom and Gina were off on a two day spa trip. They'd be back today actually.

"Because, it's just weird of you to do that. You usually don't bring girls home. You like to get to know them first." Cam grabbed my wrist and wouldn't let go even though I tried twisting my wrist free. He looked at me dead in the eye and said,"Oh, so you know me all of a sudden?" That was probably the worst thing he could have ever said to me, and by the expression on his face, I could tell he regretted saying it. We've known each other for so long, ever since we were babies practically, and he has the right to say I don't know him? I felt my eyes sting, so I finally tugged my wrist away free and ran down the stairs. I saw two bowls of cereal ready on the counter for Cam and his little friend. I wanted to throw it across the room, but I didn't have enough energy to do that. I stormed out of the house, and slammed the screen door shut to give myself a dramatic effect. I probably seemed more mad on the outside than I did on the outside, to be honest. I felt the sand go on my calves and thighs every time I took a step forward. I went to the beach. The beach was always my getaway. It was always empty for some reason, but that was what made me feel like the whole beach belonged to me. I looked back to see if Cam was chasing after me, but he wasn't. I'm not even sure why I thought I would see him following me. I know that he wouldn't anyway. I sat on the sand below me and felt the tears streaming down my face. Why was I crying? I shouldn't even care about Cameron when I'm really starting to like Sam. Sam's the complete opposite of Cameron. Sam's so sweet and gentle. When Cam is only nice to me when he feels like it, and I fall right in. Like he's luring me. I'm not going to let Cam be in control anymore. I am commander in chief from now on.

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I couldn't go back to the house after what happened, so I called Sam. I already have him on speed dial, so all I had to do was press the number three. The phone rang a couple times, and Sam's deep voice finally answered.