I'm Not Okay (I Promise) [completed]

Chapter 2 • I'm Not Okay (I Promise)

Sqaishey's POV
I sat at home, recording feather adventures. I pre-recorded 4 videos and scheduled them to upload when I wanted.

Then I just strolled downstairs and sat on the sofa with my head in my hands. When I realised that having a pity party for myself isn't going to help. It may be 2 months since me and Joe split, but I still feel depressed. Not a day goes by where I don't sit in silence for hours, regretting everything I did.

Stampy's POV
I sat on the bench at the local park, hands intertwined with Amy's. I had to do it. It's now or never.

"A... Amy," I started, looking directly into her gorgeous eyes.
"Yeah?"

"Iloveyousososomuchandwillyoubemygirlfriend?" I asked, the words gushing out of my mouth.

"Can you repeat that? Slower maybe?" She giggled.

"I love you so so so much! Will you be my girlfriend?" I repeated, understandable this time.

"Of course Stamps!" She answered, pulling me closer and kissing me.

Sqaishey's POV
I decided to go for a walk to the local park. To the special tree I always went to when I was sad as a child.

I was walking along, hands in my coat pockets when I looked up to see a sight that disgusted me. Amy and Stampy, obviously in love. He said he loved me, but obviously he didn't if he moved on this quick. I looked back down with tears about to spill and ran off in the direction I came from, short ombre hair bouncing around my face.

I heard footsteps running after me, but I didn't stop. I didn't look where I was going either.

•••

I opened my eyes to be faced by a bright light above me. Then I heard a voice. A voice I never thought would be in the same room as me again. Stampy.

"You're ok!"

"W... what happened?" I asked, lifting my head and looking around the room to see familiar faces: Netty and Stampy.

"You ran into the road. And you can imagine what happened next," Netty told me.

"Yeah. Gg Sqaish," I said to myself.

"Anyway, I'm really sorry Sqaish but now I know you're fine I really need to go. I'm meant to be meeting Tom in 10 minutes," Netty said.

"Ok that's fine Netty!" I replied, "See you later!"

"Bye!"

Netty grabbed her black leather backpack and her phone, then she rushed off.

"So. Hi," I said to Stampy.

"Quit the small talk. Why? Why did you leave me?" He snapped.

"I didn't want to. I was being controlled by my depression. But you'd never want me back now. You're happy with Amy," I snapped back.

"Well you're right! I am happy with Amy! She treats me like I deserve! Not like you did! Not one bit!" He yelled, then stormed out the room.

I sighed. I went on YouTube and checked my notifications, then went to sleep.