Is this a game or naww?

Chapter 6

Chapter 6

My heart drops down to my stomach. What the ? No I can't go through this again. Not with Kevin. My phone buzzes again. Why doesn't he just leave my alone. He should just go out with Christina.

I need you

No! Why can't he move on like I did. Did I move on? I don't know. I still want to talk to Kevin I mean we were friends for so long I don't want to lose this friendship. I want to be able to talk his ear off about softball and I have to hear his lovely voice when he talks about baseball. I just gaze inattentively into his big beautiful brown eyes. Okay I don't want to lose him. But he treats me with no respect. Maybe I can change him, or maybe I can get use to it.

I text him back.

Kevin please. I can't do it anymore. I need you. All I've done for the past weeks is holding back tears. I have zero motivation, I couldn't even go to softball last week because I was so depressed. You know me I wouldn't give up softball for anything but I just couldn't bring myself to do it. Kevin can you please just talk to me.

Nothing. Why the fuck does he text me when he fucking needs me if he won't talk to me? How does he think he's going to get me back if he goes and does the same shit.

Kevin I need you more than you think. The other day was the worst day of my life. Why are you even 'talking' to Christina? I thought we were. You know what... I'm to good for you.

*The next day in school*

"Class..." Mr. Ballard was going on and on about history. I zone out and dig through my bag to find my goldfish.

"Hey. Oh no I know that face it's the I-talked-to-Kevin face" Emily knows me too well.

I smile a little, it's probably the first I smiled in a while. "Yeah"

"What did he say?"

I tell her what he said and then what I said and her mouth drops open.

"Did you really say that your too good for him?" She said shocked.

"Yeah here see" I let her read the text messages. Her face creeps into a grin across her face.

"You go Becc!" She squealed loudly.

"Girls!" Mr. Ballard yelled at us.

"Sorry" we mumble.

I see Emily roll here eyes. And I smirk and she joins me laughing.

"So are you going to talk to him again?" I can tell by the way she asks that she wasn't very comfortable with this question.

I shrug "Honestly I don't know, I have deep feelings for him. But then when he sends me those pictures and ignores me, he doesn't make me feel special he actually makes me feel worse" I shiver thinking about those pictures. Uh-oh by the look on her face I didn't tell her about the pictures.

"What fucking pictures?" she snaps.

"Well sometimes on snapchat Kevin would..um.... you.. know" I stutter

"No I don't know" she hisses at me "go on tell me"

"He sends me pictures of...um.. little Kevin" I try to whisper as much as I can

"WHHAT!?!" Emily yells.

"Emily and Rebecca lunch detention" Mr. Ballard snaps.

"Oh you got to be fucking kidding" Emily mumbles. She's really pisses off, I probably should have told her before.

"Do you have anything you want to tell me?" I open my mouth to say something but she cuts me off "so help you if you don't tell me..."

I should just tell her I mean I already told her most of it.

"Okay calm down. Sometimes when Kevin gets...horny he likes ...to... tell me ... and"

"There a fucking and!" She yells quietly.

I nod "he likes to tell me when he's... Jerking off" her mouth flies open.

BBBBRRRIIINNNGGG!

"We have to talk!" she huffs.

I nod and she stomps out of the room, but not fast enough.

"Emily, Rebecca come here" Mr. Ballard calls us over to his desk and he's scribbling something down on a piece of paper, then hands it to us.

LUNCH DETENTION

Report to room A-233

Emily snatches the paper and makes a whining noise and Mr. Ballard gives her a disapproving look.

"I'll see you two later" he smirks at us. Ugh he just wanted to give someone detention and it had to be us.

The rest of the day goes by as a blur. Until I hear 5th period bell ring.

Lunch. Ugh why did we have to get detention today?

I walk down the hallway and of course with my luck Christina is walking the opposite way as me. I try really hard not to roll my eyes, but they roll the exact point she comes up to me. Oh gosh what could she possibly want?

"Becc! How's it going? Listen I heard about Kevin, he told me everything. And I just want you to know-" she stops putting a finger to silence me, even though she was talking. She takes her phone out and replies to a text. "Oh look it's Kevin" she shows me her screen and there's a bunch of hearts next to his name and I can't but feel this pang of jealously. He had time to answer her in school but he can't fucking answer me! "Aww he's so cute, did he ever send you cutesy text messages?" She slickly grinned.

I yell "Fuck you!" ment to be to Christina but as I turn I accidentally yell it into a teachers face.

"To the office NOW!"

Fuck

My

Life