We Both Fucked Up

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Brianna

I was playing music low on the radio as I cleaned up the whole apartment. Cardi was still over at August' place and she said she was coming later in the afternoon. I heard somebody by the door, so I went to look at the peephole and I saw a man standing on the other side.

What the fuck. I quickly went into the kitchen and grabbed a knife and put it behind my back and then opened the door. "Can I help you?" I asked him. When I looked at him, I instantly felt some type of connection with him, but I know for a fact that I never met him before.

"You've gotten so big." He said admiring me. I just stood there awkwardly not knowing what to say. "Do I know you?" I asked rudely.

"It's me, your father." He said serious looking me in my eyes. "There's no way. My mom said my father left us before I was even born" I told him. "Can I come in?"

I hesitantly moved out of his way and allowed him to walk into the apartment. I placed the knife back into the kitchen before going into the living room.

I sat on the couch crossing my arms, "So... you're my father?" I asked.

"Me and Jade were never really together. When she got pregnant, she wanted to give you up for adoption and then we got into a physical altercation. She then got a restraining order on me and every time it would expire she would get another one." He handed me a paper and it was the restraining order. "But I guess she forgot about it, because it recently expired a few weeks ago and I know I'm late but I really wanted to finally meet my baby."

I wasn't surprised that my mother lied to me about my father and I also wasn't surprised that she wanted to give me up for adoption. I was really surprise that she didn't plan to abort me. "I'm sorry." I mumbled putting my head down. He got up and sat besides me, "Sorry for what?"

"I don't know, I just feel bad for the things you been through." I told him. He shrugged his shoulders, "It's fine, your mother is crazy and I'm not surprised of her actions."

"So where do we go about this?" I asked. "I truly want a relationship with you. I know I'm twenty one years late, but I rather start now than never."

"It's going to take a while for me to adjust, but I definitely want to develop a relationship with you as well."  I replied.

"You can take as much time as you want, I don't want to pressure you into anything. I just wanna make sure that we are in a good space."

I nodded my head. "Me too. To be honest, I wish you came sooner because I really needed a father figure in my life." I said playing with my fingers. "I think my life would've been hundred percent different if you were in my life. But I don't blame you for it."

"I wish I did too. I thought about you all day and I use to always count down the days until the restraining order was expired to finally meet you." I nodded my head and we hugged it out and then he left leaving me alone in my thoughts.

Cardi

"So wha' we doin'?" August asked me. I was laying on the bed as he was sitting edge of the bed putting on a shirt. I sat up and grabbed my pants off the edge of the bed and put them on, "What do you want us to be?"

"I mean you chill, I just wanna really kno' where ya' heads at." He told me. I nodded my head, "We can just see where things go from here." I replied getting up off the bed and looking for my shirt.

"Aight." He replied getting back on the bed, after I put my shirt back on. I went over to lay on the bed with him.

I heard my phone dinging as it was on the nightstand. I sighed before grabbing it and looking at the text message.