Alone (Brothers Conflict Fanfiction)

Chapter 5: Pierrot's sadness

FUYU'S P.O.V

I opened my eyes since the sun rays passed through the curtains, it made me wake up because of it's brightness.  But I saw someone on top of me, trying to kiss me in the cheek.  I pushed Tsubaki-nii-chan,

"Don't scare me like that!!  And what were you doing anyway???!!!"  He laughed and he was smiling happily, "I gave you a good morning kiss. ´∀'"  He said with a laugh, and a charming smile....

I covered myself with a blanket, "And were you watching me when I was asleep?"  I asked him, "Yeah, you were cute actually, and you snore."  He teased.  "I am not!!!!!"  I shouted.

"And I'm not cute!!!!"  >  <  "If you're not cute....then what are you?"  He stood up and put his palm of his hand at my cheeks, "E-eh....What the....  -//////////-"   I whispered at myself.

"I'm ugly.."  I spoke.  "No, you're not, your beautiful as a rose."  O//////O  "No, everyone thinks I'm ugly....  Before I came here."  I explained.  I took his hands from my cheeks, and

guided him out of the room, "Sorry but I'm not feeling well, can you come back later?"  "Ehhhh~  Well, then....."  He waved and I slammed the door closed...........

I laid down on the door, and slid down...  "He said I'm cute....and beautiful....."  I burried my face at my knees, keep thinking about Tsubaki........  E-eh, stop it!!!  Now I must grow sibling-to-sibling

relationship with others!!!!!!  Let's go!!!!!    I went out of my room and I saw Azusa-nii-chan, he was staring at me with a blush on his cheeks, "What's wrong?"  I asked.

He pointed at me, "Your clothes....  >///////>"  He looked away.  I looked at my clothes and I was just wearing some underwear and a bra.......  @//////////////////@  

I covered my body, "TSSUUUBBBBAAAAAAKIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"


TIME SKIP...........

I glared at Tsubaki for a long time, "What's wrong Fuyu-chan?  Did you and Tsubaki have a fight?"  Ema-nee-chan asked...  I explained what he did to me earlier....  She was poker-faced.

TT__TT  Okay, no crying.  At least I'm not naked!!!!  O~O    Oh yeah, I need to talk to my onii-chans so I wouldn't get left behind....   Okay, who should I talk with first?..........The one who's 

kind..........  Aha!!  Target: Asahina Iori  "Iori-nii-chan!!!"  I ran up to him.  "What is it?"  He asked politely with his prince-like smile and his gorgoeus sway.  Hnnghhh!  I almost died there!

"Can I hang out with you for a while?"  He smiled, "Of course you can.  So where do you want to go first?"  He asked me politely.  "Well, where do you want to go?"  I asked him.

He laughed, "Let's just walk around the beach."  He said and we started walking around.  

"So, Shimada-san, what do you like to do during weekends?"  Iori-nii-chan asked.....  Shimada-san, he's so polite....  OwO  "Err...I do nothing."  He giggled, >__<  Did I say something wrong!!!??

"Well, we could hang out."  He said, "Su-sure!"  I gave a salute.  Then something caught my attention, "Nii-chan, what's that inside your shirt?"  I pointed.  He put it back in his shirt,

"It's nothing."  He became scary all of the sudden.  "I'm sorry for asking.."  I apologized and felt bad, but he just patted my head, "Let's sit down, shall we?"  He sat down and I copied him,

He was looking at the ocean.  "I love the ocean."  He spoke, "It's quiet and dark.......It makes me feel calm."  He explained.  "I can swim but I'm scared of the ocean when I drown."

I said to him, and he looked at me with wonder.  "Why?"  He asked.  "I don't have parents or I lost them...."  I explained.  "I-im sorry....."  He apologized.  "No...it's okay....

I never got to meet them actually... but I wish....  I became an orphan since I'm the one who survived at the ocean...They say we took a cruise but they didn't know how it sank.....

The thing I know that I was in a normal home with many kids that didn't have parents......."  I explained and I became melancholic.  "Shimada-san..."  Iori's tone was sad and he sounded lonely.

"Well, we're the same..."  He said and I got surprised.  "What do you mean....?"  "I lost someone very important too."  He said.  "Well, I don't want this anymore!!  Let's be happy!"  I tried to

make Iori smile.  "Come on, smile.  I don't want you to see you frown."  I made a big smile already turning to a grin.  He wasn't smiling or anything, I touched his mouth and made him smile,

he touched my hands.......and he made me hug him.  "Thank you, Shimada-san."  He thanked me.  "Your welcome."  I answered back.  "I think it's time to go back, Shimada-san."

Iori-nii-chan said and helping me stand up.  "Call me Fuyu-chan."  I followed him going back to the cottage for breakfast.   


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We ate breakfast together, and we already went back home.  


TIME SKIP.........

We were already at home tired, but since there's still time...Naaahhhh!!!!  I went out of my room, and Wataru was running around my room.  "Wataru, what's wrong?"  I asked him and he was panicked.

"I need a clown!!  For my bestfriend's birthday!"  He panicked.  "I can be your clown."  I volunteered.  "Are you sure?  Is that hard?"  Wataru looked worried.  "Leave it to your onee-chan!!  I can do it,

I'm very funny actually."  I grinned.  "Really??!!  Then I'll tell it to my bestfriend!"  Wataru smiled.  "Wait, who will be going to your party?"  I asked.  "The whole family will go!"  Wataru went back to his room.

So, they'll see me as a clown.......  -.- Well, I want to help Wataru-chan.  "When is it?"  I asked Wataru again.  "Later."  Nyaahhhhh!!  I need to get ready!!!!  

I prepared my things and I still have my clown costume from the orphanage...  It was already a late afternoon and we went to Wataru's bestfriend's birthday party.  

"Fuyu-chan, are you alright by being the clown?"  Ema-nee-chan asked me, I nodded with confidence.  I was always being laughed at so maybe I can be a clown....I think it's a good thing because

I make everyone happy.  But...am I happy?  "Nee-chan, go change, it's your turn."  Wataru pushed me lightly.  "A-ah, yeah."  I went to the back and changed to my clown suit.  

I made a deep inhale and became confident.  

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It's alright, it's alright.  I am nothing but a person who jokes around.  A nameless pierrot from my small circus..  All my life is making everyone smile so my whole life is a circus.  

Like a round little moon, on top of this ball, I keep my balance on.  While everyone was amazed because I was balancing while juggling balls.  Sometimes I make a showy fall, getting laughed at

is my job...  Everyone laughed, me too.  I find Wataru crying at the audience..  Why Wataru?  Don't make such a sad face....  I noticed the tears that even our siblings didn't notice.

I have to wipe them off of your face....  "It's alright, it's alright.  It doesn't hurt or scratch at all, as long as you smile."  I made magic to the audience by making flowers fall, the atmosphere was happy

and lively.  It's alright, it's alright, falling akwardly at the ground, I am a ball-riding pierrot from my own circus.  After the party....

I went near to Wataru while I was still in my clown costume, "What's wrong, Wataru?"  Wataru who won't stop crying tells me, "Your lie is making me sad."  I pointed at myself,

"I haven't made a single lie."  At those words, Wataru bursted out crying again...  E-eh?!!  I tried to make Wataru laugh by wiggling my arms around, making a funny face..  Making flowers appear

inside my hat, juggling balls and balancing again at the ball.  Why won't he smile?  :(  Then I fell from the ball and Wataru cried hard.  I just sat down in front of him, watching him cry....

and he reached out his hands.  "Show me the face under your  mask, that you keep hidden from the audience."  He said..  Why?  "When you get hurt, say you're hurt, when it's hard;scream.

There's nothing to be ashamed of..."  Wataru took my mask of and a tear fell out from my eyes.  So....that's what he's sad about.. .   I cried while smiling at Wataru,

"It's alright, it's alright, you don't have to smile perfectly, the way you don;t have to lie about it again....."  Wataru's words made cry yet saved...  "It's alright, nee-chan, you don't have to hold it in,

I'll cry with you."  I cried again with him.  "It's alright, it's alright, you found it for me, my own face that I was about to forget."  Wataru put me a flower at my head when I said those words,

"It's alright..."  Wataru smiled.  "It's alright, I'm alright, those words seem like magic."  I hugged Wataru while crying in his small shoulder.  Look, the lying pierrot has now vanished......  

"I never thought you could lie, nee-chan....Don't do that again."  Wataru said to me, I promised him that I would never lie and hold it in...  It's like the chains broke and I can unlock my new self....  

"Thank you."  I thanked Wataru.


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We were already home and I feel relieved now because of Wataru's help.  "Ready for school?"  Ema-nee-chan opened the door, "School, is it today?!"  I asked her immediately.

"No, it's tomorrow.  You already have your things for school, and by the way........I saw you cry a while ago."  Ema-nee-chan whispered to me.  "E-eh??!!"  I blushed.

Ema-nee-chan hugged me, "Don't lie."  She spoke two words that was very much understood.  I nodded.  "Okay."  I smiled.  "And let's go to school together." Ema-nee-chan said to me,

"YEAH!!"  Juli jumped.  Tomorrow is a new a day!!!  



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A/N:  Tomorrow's chapter will be delayed since I'm going somewhere, sadly I can't use internet when I'm at another place.  I hope you understand, I'll be available at Sunda night, or late afternoon.

So the poll or special chapter will be still next week, and I can't make a couple vote....  My story is only new so when I get many readers (I hope)  then okay!!!  :)

~Blaze-senpai~