Hopefully Dead

Hopefully Dead part 3

As my brother was consoling me, I run to her bathroom and try to run through the paramedics.One of the paramedics stops  me and says "honey this is a hazardous place." 

"But I need to see her one last time!" 

"Darling I can't allow that, I'm really sorry."

As I'm crying and begging for her dear life. My brother picks me up while I start throwing a temper tantrum. He struggles to calm me down while carrying me to his car. "Y/n, calm the fuck down, I need to tell you something when we get home!"

I finally calm down, and start to quite down while he's driving. "What did you want to tell me?" My brother looked at me with a blank look on his face. I was worried about what was going to come out of his mouth next. He stayed quite. I wasn't going to ask again, so I just stayed quite. 

My brother pulls up to our drive way and angrily opens his car door and slams it shut. He opens the front door with force and heads to the living room. I chase after him to see why he was so angry. "Are you ok?" I say while I sit down right next to him. 

"I've been hiding something." 

"Ok?" I said looking at him while his hands were over his eyes.

"When jack broke up with Ally she came crying to our door looking for you, but you weren't here so I just let her come in to the house. She just kept asking me where you were. I didn't really know what to say to her because you never really had an abusive relationship, so I couldn't really give her advice." 

I looked at him with confusion. "What do you mean?"

"She came looking for YOU! You weren't here so I had to find a way to make her feel better." 

I still was very confused. I kind of didn't want to know what he was going to say next. I started to cry a little, just remembering as if she came to my house right about now to ask about a guy or simply talk major shit about jack and Maddie. My brother looks at me when I started to sniffle. "The real question is are you ok?" My brother says with concern. I stay quiet. " While I was talking to her she..." he paused. Why did he pause? "She what?" " She sort of, kissed me" I didn't know what to say. I looked at him a little disappointed. I wasn't mad but I just didn't know what to say or think. "So you guys hooked up?" He took a deep breath and said, "ummm...sort of." He pauses once again. "I really couldn't stop her, if I did I would feel like a fucking loser afterwards." I stare blankly at him while he was fidgeting. "Um.. ok well at least you sort of made her feel better. I think..." 

"I feel bad though. I feel like I didn't do enough for her." I look at my brother much more confused than I was before. "What do you mean?" He gets up from the couch and walks to his room. I walk to his room and knock on the door. 

"Hello?... Do you still wanna talk?" I hear no response, so I wait. Finally I open the door angrily and yell. "What the hell happened between you and Ally?!" He was on his bed with his laptop. He looks up at me and looks up from his laptop. He looks angrier. "Why are you so damn angry?!" he says with a huskier angrier voice. 

"Because Y/n! You always do this! You say something, and then SOMEHOW you fucking forget the rest of the story! You only say what you think we want to hear." He looks back down at his laptop. "Well? Are you going to fucking tell me?!" I say with no patience. He ignores me. I walk out of his room and slam the door behind me. I go to my room and slam my door as well. I hear my brothers door open and hear footsteps heading toward mine. " ok fine. I'll tell you." I sit upright. 

"So after she kissed me we sort of started talking."

"So you guys started dating?"

"sort of."

With that being said I stayed quite. I was still very confused why he never told me about their secret relationship.

I bring up the topic of what happened earlier today. "So is that why you called me? To tell me YOU were going to check up on her?" he starts to tear up. I take the sleeve of my shirt and wipe it off. "Ever since we started seeing each other, I checked up on her everyday, cuz I knew that she was somewhat suicidal, so everyday I would bring her lunch or just simply go over to talk about random stuff. When I called you, I knew that her mom had asked you to check up on her, so I just called you to tell you that you didn't have to skip class to go see her." At this point I was an emotional wreck, I should've just answered my brothers phone call so I didn't have to see my best friend in such a horrific state of mind.