Why? [Jikook]

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He felt better about everything, until he walked into the room which had Taehyung standing there waiting. Jungkook was caught off guard, almost running when he saw him.

"It's okay, it's okay Kookie. I'm not gonna do anything." Taehyung told him, getting closer to catch him. Jungkook relaxed, but only slightly.

"Are you sure? I don't know." Jungkook saw the look in his eyes, finally nodding.

"You know... You hurt my feelings." He stated.

"Wait, I hurt your feelings? How? You hurt Hoseok so now I hurt yours?"

"You remember the day you decided I wasn't good enough for you? You remember that day you decided Jimin was better but then he didn't want you? He wanted me still?" Taehyung said, getting closer. Jungkook just looked down.

"I think I like Taehyung..."

"Jimin-hyung..."

"Why did you hurt Hoseok?" He whispered. Jungkook only liked to observe, but now he was put on the spot.

"Why? You wanna know? Because I miss you, why else? Do you wanna explain why you thought it was okay to hurt me? Even when we fought it was still painful, even though we weren't together." He didn't have much of an angry voice, more disappointed and done.

"I love you... It's just..." Taehyung finally got close enough to raise his chin up with his finger. Jungkook felt himself restrain from hitting his hand away.

"Just...?" He breathed, his lips inching closer. Jungkook just tensed, staring him in the eyes. "Do you wanna kiss me, Kookie?"

Don't you dare.

"I don't know..." his lips were connected anyway, the softness of his friend's giving him nostalgia. He pushed away, surprised. He stared at him with wide eyes. "Tae..."

"Tae what?" He asked, sadness in his eyes. Suddenly, guilt hit him like a train.

"I'm sorry, I shouldn't have done that to you." His apology surprised himself, he didn't think he would ever do that again. "I'll kiss you, but you must promise to tell no one." Taehyung gave him a confused look, but went with it.

You are dead if Jimin finds out.

They kissed again, this time moving their lips in sync. Tae placed his hand on the back of his neck and hair, Jungkook wrapping his arms around his body.

Tae broke off and grabbed Jungkook to drag him off. "Where are we going?" He asked, following him. Taehyung didn't answer, finally leading into his room. He closed the door. He took the end of his shirt and pulled it off, his body toned and almost like honey.

Jungkook knew what was happening. He gasped, his eyes wide. "I don't... I can't."

"What can't you do? Kookie, don't do this to me. There is nothing in your way." Of course, absolutely nothing bro.

"I'm not ready." He said quietly. Taehyung looked at him, not even shocked.

"You are lying. Forget it." He turned away, crossing his arms. Was it that obvious how he lied?

"I-" he sighed. He was ready, just not for Tae. To be completely honest, he was trying to help Jimin keep it a secret. He couldn't almost hold it in. He touched his hair shyly. "I think I'm... I'm ready. I'm sorry."

You did not... You did not...

Yes, he did.

Taehyung turned around. "Are you sure?" His eyes were wide, now happy. "I'll take good care of you, baby Kookie."

He approached him, connecting his lips roughly. This was gonna be a long night.

You aren't even drunk and you're stupid.

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"I'm so tired still, Yoongi." Hoseok whined, hugging him tighter. Yoongi stayed still on the bed next to him.

"I know. I'm sorry Hoseok." He didn't even mind that his younger friend didn't use "hyung". They were so comfortable with each other it didn't matter.

"You don't have to be sorry. I thought I loved someone who just should end up destroying me." Yoongi pulled away and gave him eye contact.

"Don't you dare put the blame on yourself." His eyes were serious, and he didn't even move them.

"O-okay hyung." He said, nodding slightly. "I just can't help but think that maybe... Maybe he is gonna hurt Jungkook too."

"Wait, why Jungkook?" Yoongi asked, confused.

"Can't you... Hear them? Next door? I think... They are..." Yoongi listened for a second, disgusted.

"I'm not suppose to say this but drama is gonna start anyway so Jimin and Jungkook are dating." He pulled his friend close into his chest.

"Jimin lied to me and now Jungkook is cheating?" Hoseok asked. Yoongi sighed again.

"I know. It's just so... Difficult. I think you already know what happened with Jimin and I so..." Yoongi closed his eyes.

There was silence for a second. Through everything, Hoseok was still there for him. Yoongi didn't need anyone else.

"I love you, hyung." Hoseok said sleepily.

"I love you too." He snuggled into him. His eyes didn't drop like they normally did. Yoongi wasn't tired, but he sacrificed himself just for this moment. To be honest, he loved begin next to people sometimes. He wasn't COMPLETELY a people person but he didn't mind all the time.

His mind began to do the thing it normally did--overthink. His mind would race so fast it didn't even give him time to react appropriately.

Jimin will never love you again. He never cared.

Taehyung is just trying to ruin you.

Your love for Hoseok will never be returned.

You are stupid. Nobody loves your music.

They are all lies but Yoongi couldn't see through them. He couldn't do that.

"Ah, hyung, are you okay? You're squeezing me." His friend whispered. He whispered a quick "ne" before letting go slightly.

"I'm sorry, it's just difficult sometimes, you know?" Hoseok nodded.

"Is it about Jimin and Jungkook? I'm stressed by it too. I wish we didn't have this problem with them. I feel like I'm in a k-drama. I love them but god, it's annoying." Hoseok trashed somebody for the first time. This calls for celebration.

"Ah, Hobi, are you that mad about it? Normally you don't do this." He chuckled.

"Shut up, hyung. Don't make me regret saying I love you." Yoongi smiled.

"You love me. Now sleep. It's getting late." Yoongi kissed Hoseok's forehead before closing his eyes too, which would lead to nothing but darkness.

I wish this was easy.