Bad boy... ish? - jaegan story

Chapter 1

*Justins pov*
Today was the day. It's the day that I have to go to Raegan's. I'm really nervous cause I have no idea what Raegan's capable of. He's hurt me before I don't see why he couldn't again. I get up and get ready for school. Ughhhh i hate school so frackin much!! And today is just gonna be awful I can feel it. I finish getting ready and head downstairs, I look at the kitchen but I'm not hungry. I never am anymore, it's just once u get as lonely as me u get lost in ur thought and don't even realize how many days u haven't eatin. Sometimes I loose count. But i don't cut, I think it's kinda dumb, I tried it once and didn't like it so I never did it again after. I get in my car and drive to school, not even saying bye to my mom first. I mean why would I? She knows what Raegan did to me but still made me go. I walked into the building and headed to my first class hearing words like "faggot" being said to me. I'm used to it so really I don't give a shit.
|time skips cause it's school and there's nothing interesting there|
The last bell rings. Shit. I'm gonna have to go home with him damn it. His house isn't far from the school he just walks. I went to the bathroom cause I was trying to stall. But then someone walks into the restroom. I cross my fingers and hope it's not Raegan. But guess who it is🙄.
*Raegan's pov*
This is my chance. I can finally apologize to him. I didn't wanna do it at school and he blocked me from literally everything. I walked into the bathroom expecting no one to be in there since the bell rang 10 minutes ago. I wanted to go to figure out what I was gonna say. I walked in and guess who I saw... fuck. He turned around and we quickly made eye contact. God his eyes are perfe.. what the fuck are u saying Raegan? Ur not gay. I look away once I realized we've been staring for quite a while. I break the silence and ask "are u ready to go?" "Yea I guess." And with that we walk out and start walking home. I tried to communicate with him but he wouldn't answer. I know he hates me and i honestly don't know how to fix are relationship. I mean he won't even look at me! "Justin look, I'm sorry for what I di" he cut me off "stop Raegan, I know what ur doing. I never wanted to come here but my mom made me. I'm never gonna forgive u for what u did! U left me with NOTHING!!! Who the hell does that?! And u left me for 2 YEARS! We're in 12th grade damn it! If u were really serious about apologizing to me why didn't u do it 2 years ago? If u would please leave me alone for these few weeks that I know I'll barely be able to get through that would be nice." Damn. I really messed up. How the fuck can I gain his friendship again? I could see the tears in his eyes as he walks. Why did I ever leave him. I'm fucking stupid. I seriously don't know how I can fix this. I fucked up big time.
*justins pov*
I could barely hold back the tears saying that. I would love to be his friend again but how am I supposed to know if he's gonna mess up again and leave me broken? I can't go through that pain again. I've been broken enough, and I don't think I could handle that again. I don't know how I'm gonna hold up these next few weeks but i damn sure am gonna have to try my best not to break down and have anxiety attacks. I don't even know where to sleep cause I can't even fucking count how many siblings he has and I know there's no spare bedrooms. Damn if I'm gonna have to stay in the same damn room as h- "ur gonna have to stay in my room cause u know I have a bunch of siblings. U can either sleep on the bed with me or on the floor, we can make a nice bed out of pillows and blankets for u?" "Yea I'll just sleep on the floor" ughhh could this day get any worse?? 
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Heyyyy y'all ik this is kinda short but I have homework to do😩 I promise the chapters will get better but I didn't know how to start off the book so sorry if it sucks😰. But the drama is about to start... see u next update!!!
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